Painfully long day
I’ve been up since 5am. I woke up to pee and couldn’t go back to sleep. So I stayed up. My CRPS pain started soon as I was fully awake. My foot bones have been aching me all day and feel like they are being crushed.
As I suspected, my pcp sent me a message about the surgeon’s appt. I need to get my blood work done tomorrow because the rest of the week is going to be super hot and I am not leaving my AC. I told them about my flare and depression being bad. Also told them I don’t have confidence in my psychiatrist anymore. Guy sees me for 15 mins and then schedules an appt three months later. What kind of care is that? My PCP sees me more than I see him. Eventually I will find a new one but I will stick with him for now.
I had therapy today. We talked about my puppy, who is home again but is down because her parents aren’t here. I have decided to take over for her care. I don’t know how I am going to afford it but I will take her to the vet and get her the care she needs. I am also looking for mobile grooming so she can get a bath and her nails trimmed. We talked about my psychiatrist and she was not happy with the appt being three months away. We talked about seeing someone else but I am not ready for change. I also talked about my pain and how difficult it was just brushing my teeth and then trimming my beard. My back flared up and I had to sit down. I wasn’t standing too long, maybe 15-20 mins. Lately my back has been acting up and I don’t know why. It keeps cramping on me. I can’t sit for long anymore like I used to. I am waiting to see my pcp to bring it up. I see her next month. I went over my appts for the month and forgot I have an ultrasound scheduled but I don’t remember why. I think it is for the cyst in my kidney but I could be wrong.
I felt ok after therapy. I felt validated for the things I talked about. She understood pain and she doesn’t want me to exacerbate it. I ended up taking pain meds because I couldn’t stand my foot pain anymore. My right knee is acting up for whatever the fuck reason. I hate when I get pain in areas of my body that are well. I did take a shower and had to sit after I washed up. I had to rest. I wanted a hot shower as it felt good. I rested on my niece’s bed and then I took the puppy outside. I stayed outside with her until she wanted to come inside. It wasn’t that hot outside because of the wind. It was 80 degrees but no humidity. A really nice day. I hope there is no humidity tomorrow. I don’t want to come home to need another shower.
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