sleep sucks

Sleep sucks

I woke up around 3am. I don’t remember why. I think I had to pee or something. I couldn’t get back to sleep. I was tossing and turning. I wasn’t that awake to read and I didn’t want to make myself awake. Around 4 I took an Ativan. But I didn’t get back to sleep till after 7 and then I woke up around 9 to pee again. I stayed up. Because my bitch sister put my bagels in the freezer, I had smores pop tart with my coffee. I keep forgetting to take one out so I can have it.

I brushed my teeth and then tried to decide what I was going to wear. The temp was cool but it was supposed to reach 80. I don’t think it ever did. It was humid though. But a nice day. I left early because I didn’t want to risk laying down and falling asleep or be lazy and miss my bus. The bus was late today anyway. My back hated standing and waiting for so long. I am going to see my pcp’s NP tomorrow about it.

I made a sandwich before leaving the house so I would have something to eat either before or after class. I was hungry before class so sat somewhere and ate it. I need to get another water bottle. My allergies were off the hook this morning. The smell of fresh cut grass was making me sneeze and I love the smell of freshly cut grass. I had like an hour to spare before class. I should have brought my gender book to try and get caught up on the reading. I just checked the syllabus and there are three fucking chapters I need to read. Fuck me. I hope they don’t have to be handwritten like last week. I haven’t gotten that far.

On the way home there was delays on the redline. It took forever to get to my stop and then there was delays between the stop before mine and my stop. I was ready to cry. I just wanted to go home and put my feet up. My back and feet were hurting me so much. I need new sneakers or insoles or something. The pair I have is more than a year old. I only buy New Balance and the price has gone up like everything else. I think it is like $85 for a pair, not on sale. I have been waiting to buy them. Might have to finagle the bagel to get them this month.

I am listening to Tim McGraw. Love him so much. I haven’t listened to him in a long while. Sox are playing at 8 tonight because they are in Texas. They lost last night and I think they will lose tonight. I don’t have faith in the starting pitcher. Three weeks left of games. Still in the run for post season but not if they continue to fucking lose. They are still above 500 so that is good. I am wicked tired so want to go to bed early. I need to do some reading though. Hope I can muster up some concentration.