Author: Midnight Demon

Migraine siege continues

I am on day four of headache/migraine. My neuro emailed me late last night and I responded. She agreed to put me on steroids to see if it breaks the cycle. I woke up with a headache. I haven’t taken anything for it. I had breakfast and strong coffee. Then I took a nap for a couple of hours. I didn’t get to sleep last night till after 2am. My head was hurting so bad that I couldn’t rest. I was also drinking a lot and knew I would have to pee eventually.

I did some school work before I took a nap. I figure I get that out of the way. I did some research for my build a brain project. I have no clue what the fuck I am doing. This has to be done electronically and I have no idea how to draw. I suck at it. Gonna see if my niece who is an art major can do it for me.

I had to make the ground beef that I took out before it went bad. I still don’t know what I am going to do with it. As I was cooking it, the wind came through the house as the back door was open. It cause neuropathy pain and my headache became a migraine. I feel like my frontal lobes are being crushed. It is hard to think so this blog is not going to be long. I need to lay down. I hope the steroids have a chance to work by tomorrow.

Day 3 of migraines

I woke up a little before my med alarm went off. I had to pee. I felt good, which was really weird but it didn’t last long. By noon, I got a migraine. I took my meds and then got dressed as I had to leave for my doctor’s appointment. I walked to the new train station. I didn’t know where the entrance was as I hadn’t been there before. I walked like three blocks and was out of breath. It was flat walking so I think the migraine had something to do with it. I wasn’t walking fast. I knew I was going to be early for my appointment and I was by a half hour. I got winded again as I walked to the building. I had to sit along the street before I got to the building for a little bit. I was wicked early so I could rest for a bit.

I got to the office and the covering medical assistant was rude. I asked for her name and she just looked at me like I was stupid. She never told me her name. My doc was late. But that was ok. She is awesome. We had a long visit. She ordered an EKG. Everything was normal and I told her my concerns. She assured me it wasn’t an aneurysm. The neuropathy was definitely migraine related, which I was relieved about. I had posted about this on Facebook and my high school best friend kept telling me to get an MRA done to rule out an aneurysm. She had one when her migraine was bad but didn’t know it and she was in her 20s. She could have died. I am grateful she didn’t. But every time I get these stupid headaches I always freak out because I get these weird symptoms. My face becomes numb so I think I am having a stroke.

I messaged my neuro before I left the house as this is the third day of migraine activity and I really do not want to go back to the ED to be admitted for fluids and IV Depakote. I asked if going on steroids again would be worthwhile or just waiting out the Topamax as the dose is at 100 mg a day now. I am really hurting. My head is alternating between crushing pain/pressure and pins and needles in addition to just being painful. I told the neuro that I was having the crushing pain and pressure as that is what sent me to the ED Labor Day weekend. The nurse sent the message to the neuro but I haven’t heard back. I hope she doesn’t respond in a week like last time.

After my appointment, I went grocery shopping. I also waited for my sister who was working in the area. We rode the train home together but she was meeting her girlfriend after work. It was still nice to see her. The bus that I got on broke down two stops before my stop. Luckily, the next bus was right behind it and we got on. I thought about going to the pharmacy but my groceries had already been out for about an hour and I didn’t want to keep them out any longer. I will go tomorrow. My doc wants me to go out more often so I will go out tomorrow and pick up my meds. I walked a lot today. I am so fucking tired. I should sleep well tonight, I hope.

Insomnia strikes again

I was up from like 230 till like 0800. I woke up after a few hours of sleep and I just couldn’t settle down. I read some and the book just kept sucking me in, wanting me to keep turning the page. I love this book. It is really interesting. I was supposed to go grocery shopping but I never did. It took a lot of effort for me to get up. I ended up taking all of my meds and my T shot before 7am. I set the alarm for 10am but I was awake before then. My bladder kept waking me up to pee. I had drank nearly two bottles of Powerade. I was so thirsty. I had a headache but I didn’t want to take anything for it. I figure fluids and rest might help it. So I did drink a liter of water when I was up today. I had two cups of coffee. I wasn’t really hungry today. I made something to eat around 5ish. I took out some ground beef. I have no idea what I am going to do with it. I am either going to make a dirty gravy, tacos, or Shepard’s pie.

I called my pcp’s office when I got up today to tell them about the shortness of breath episode I had yesterday. It was scary as I thought I was going to have to call an ambulance. I just couldn’t catch my breath for a few minutes. Then I started getting palpitations and they lasted more than fifteen minutes. I have an appointment tomorrow to see my pcp which means I have to miss class again. I am not happy about this but my health comes first. I can’t be walking around campus short of breath.

I had sent a text to my DMH worker last night to tell her about my psychiatrist said about therapy. She responded and then I responded and then she called me. We talked for about a half hour. I told her I had a plan of brushing my teeth, shaving, reading the discussion article, showering, then answering the questions. I am still working on the questions. She said that was a good plan. I am glad I showered. It didn’t help the headache though. Nothing helped. So I ended up taking some Excedrin. I feel so shitty still. Depression is bad. I feel like my family hates me and I am a burden to them. I know it is just the depression talking. I don’t want to do anything but lie down. My DMH worker said that rest was ok. But I feel guilty because there is so much I have to do. I have like four bags of recycling in my room that needs to be brought down to the bins. I need to wash my sheets. Eventually, I will need to make space for my AC again. But I don’t think I will have to worry about that till the end of Oct. It still gets warm in my room. I am going to finish my school work and then maybe read a few chapter of the book I am interested in. It’s called Finlay Donovan is Killing it by Elle Cosimano. It’s a great book.