Author: Midnight Demon

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I have been studying since this morning. I have been up since 0230. I woke up to pee and couldn’t get back to sleep. Therapy was good as I was anxious about the final. She suggested that I write out the stuff so I have been sitting at Starbucks for the past two hours. I am tired despite having my latte. I can’t write anymore. I am more than half way through exam 2 key. Prof gave us a curve on exam 4 and brought my grade to a 95. I have a solid 86 right now (B). I want to see if I can get a B+ by taking the final. It is a game at this point as it can only benefit me at this point. Trying to learn 11 chapters has been difficult. I did poorly again with exam 2 so I am paying attention to what I am writing.

The results of my culture is back. I don’t know if they will be making antibiotic changes. I was worried that the sample was lost but the nurse said the sensitivities were pending so that was good. I have never had a urine culture take so long before. It isn’t the usual suspects so that might have been why.

I am getting really sleepy. I think my gas has run out. I have like twenty minutes before the bus gets here. I have been listening to Red and Tortured Poets. I mixed it up some. The songs were taking over my brain so I needed more songs to break the loop in my brain. Funny we didn’t go over songs stuck in your head during the course, unless I missed that class.

My therapist and I talked about what I will do now that classes are over. I honestly don’t know what I will be doing. I need to clean my room some. I have been getting out the recycling that has piled up. I think I have like 6 paper bags and a few small recycle bags. I brought down four and some boxes. I might try tomorrow to bring down some more before I have to go to class. I don’t know if I am going to have something at Starbucks tomorrow. I know I am going to have a latte. I don’t know what I will eat though. I had a good turkey and pesto sandwich today. I might have that tomorrow.

Grades are in, sort of

I got my score on my exam 4 and it is 87. I don’t need to take the final but I am going to, to see if I can improve my exam 2 grade. Right now I have an 86 avg. I am pretty happy with this. I am still going to study. Weather is going to be shitty on Tues but there won’t be shuttles so that is good. Only thing is, it is later in the afternoon so I won’t be getting home till late. I think I will get Thai food on the way home so I can celebrate the end of the semester.

Today is mother’s day and it has been so hard. My childhood friend lost her mother this morning. She had been in a car accident and wasn’t wearing a seatbelt. I hope she is at peace now. I have been praying for her and my friend. She has been through so much. She is my childhood crush. She doesn’t know it though. I have been thinking of my mother and my BFFL’s mother. I miss them both. I have been staying off of Facebook because it has been triggering sadness. I miss my mother so much.

I made the Shepard’s pie, which my niece called Cottage pie as it isn’t made with lamb. I don’t particularly care for lamb. I want a cup of coffee but it’s almost 5pm and I know I will regret it if I have one. I just want something hot. Maybe I will make a cup of cocoa.

Sox won. It was another day game so I have my night free to do whatever. Last night, I went to bed early as by 7 I was so exhausted. I woke up around 3 to pee but was able to get back to sleep. I had weird dreams. I got up around 9 to pee again and I thought about staying up but my sister was doing stuff in the kitchen and I didn’t want to be near her. I made that mistake last night and all she did was bitch.

I have a pretty busy week. I have therapy tomorrow and Thurs I see my surgeon for a follow up. Sat I am meeting someone for the first time. It should be fun. I might go to Starbucks tomorrow. I am needing espresso. Coffee doesn’t really wake me up like it used to. I had two cups and now I feel like taking a nap. But I know if I have one late enough, it keeps me awake. Weird.

Did all the things I planned on doing

Last night before I fell asleep, I thought a vague idea of doing all that needed to be doing today. Trouble was, I woke up at 0030 and it took forever for me to get back to sleep. I didn’t think I would do anything, much less wake up and get up before 12. I managed to get up around 1030 because my bladder had to be emptied. I then took my meds and had some coffee. Then I brushed my teeth and shaved my head. I went back to my room to check the bus schedule and get dressed. Bus would be there in like a half hour so I took my time deciding what to wear. It was cool out so I decided to wear my sweatpants. I didn’t wear a jacket or long-sleeve shirt. The wind made things chilly but bearable.

My first stop was to get my meds in the Square. I thought about going to Starbucks but I really didn’t want another coffee. I got my meds and then went into Boston to drop off a urine sample. I asked my doc to check to see if I have a UTI as the urgency has been a problem. I then left to go out of Boston to pick up my glasses. I love my new glasses. They aren’t transitions but that is ok. I will wear them for when I am at the house and not going outside.

It took like two hours to get there and back. Then I decided to go to the grocery store and get some stuff for Shepard’s pie. I was starving as I hadn’t eaten anything but there was cake and it was supposed to be buy one get one free but when I rang it up, it wasn’t that way. So I just had the one slice. I figure I would have it with the leftover pizza from yesterday. I was on my way home when my pcp called me. My urine results were positive for infection so she sent a script for an antibiotic. Culture won’t be back until Sunday and honestly I am surprised as I didn’t think it would show anything. I’ll pick up the antibiotic tomorrow.

I came home and ate. Put the stuff away. And now I am resting. Game is on tonight but I don’t know if I will listen as I am wicked tired. I was out for nearly four and a half hours. I am so beat. If my step counter is correct, I did over 6K. That is a lot of walking. The only thing that sucks is that I forgot to buy gravy for the Shepard’s pie. I also want to get turkey for sandwiches. Maybe I will have my brother in law take me tomorrow.

I need to study for the final. I don’t think I will be doing any studying today as I am so tired. Grades haven’t been posted on exam 4 yet. Maybe this weekend it will come through. If I got a good grade on it, I won’t take the final. I am happy where I stand right now.