Midterm and other stuff
I woke up before my alarm but didn’t get out of bed. I didn’t know what time it was. I just didn’t want to get up. I had to though because I wanted to see my professor during her office hours after therapy. I got up when the alarm went off. I regretted having a 9am appt.
Therapy went ok. We talked about the hurdles I have been through the past few weeks. She wanted me to do something kind to myself. I told her if I got a good grade in my history class I will get a hot towel shave. She said I should get one anyway. We talked about my class and how anxious I was today because of the midterm. I still had some time to do some extra studying. I figure I would do that once I got to campus.
After therapy, I gave up on seeing the professor as the bus was coming now and I still hadn’t brushed my teeth yet much less get dressed. I had coffee and a corn muffin. I love Market Basket’s corn muffins. They are so yummy. I wanted to go to Starbucks but the bus gods were against me. I brushed my teeth and got dressed and then left to wait for the bus.
I got to campus but it was too late to see the professor. I printed out a couple of things for class and then studied. Then came time for the midterm. I fucked up the chronology of events. I know I didn’t get them in the correct order. I picked three IDs to write about and then bullshitted through the essay and I am not even sure it made sense. I still had like 40 mins to spare but just turned it in as I was cooked. I didn’t cite my last quote and I regret that now. I hope I am not taken down too much for that. Before I left campus, I bought a drink at the Dunkin as a treat. It was pretty good. I don’t know if it had caffeine in it but I liked it.
There were delays getting to my stop on the train. I had to pick up my meds at the pharmacy before I could go home, though. I got home and immediately played with Honey who was a snuggle bug. I love her so much. I had a toothache and needed ibuprofen but I needed to eat something first. I wanted pupusas so I got them. They were good but omg did they hurt to chew them. I think I need to get my teeth extracted sooner rather than later. I have been putting it off for a number of years now but I think my luck has run out. I hate this. I am scared. I got to go to the place that accepts my insurance. Hopefully I won’t have to pay too much for them to yank my teeth out.
I got in touch with the admin of the psychology dept. I requested an interview with her and set it up for Friday morning. I have to do this for my networking class. A few minutes after I sent the email, my bowels let loose and I shit myself. I was not happy. I went to the bathroom to change and clean up. I had all loose stool. I didn’t take magnesium last night because I didn’t want this to happen but looks like it happened anyway. I am so pissed off this keeps happening. This is because of the new antidepressant. I just ordered some fiber pills. My pcp said it might help soak up the water a bit. We’ll see.
