Category: depression

Semester starts today

I woke up a few times during the night. I was able to fall asleep after my sister left for work. Then I woke up to my med alarm. I had to pee so I got up and decided I might as well stay up as the semester begins today. I needed coffee first so after I took my meds and played my game for a bit, I went downstairs.

The puppy was in bed with her daddy. She had peed under the kitchen table. I cleaned it up. My sister made pumpkin bread and I had a slice. It was good with chocolate chips. I had two cups of coffee. Then I went to get my laptop. I saw some stuff for Econ class and became overwhelmed. I have to do a graph and there is no help with it. I am going to have to google it as I don’t remember how to do it. It has been a long time since I had to do stuff like that. I have two chapters to read for that class and an assignment. Next week will be quizzes on the chapters. The psych class released the trauma article I need to read. She also had a few assignments that are due on Monday. I have decided that Tues and Thurs will be days I will work on psych and the other days I will work on Econ. Both classes seem to have stuff due on Mondays. Last night I tried finishing psych chapt 1 and got tired on the last page. I was texting with a friend and just went to sleep.

Tomorrow I see my therapist. It will be our third meeting. She wants to go over goals for therapy and I have a hard time with setting them. I don’t really know what I want out of therapy. I always seem to come back to this question of goals for therapy or what I want. Then I think I don’t need it but I tend to suffer severe depressions and on/off suicidality.

My sister had some soup for dinner and I joined her. It was good and settled my stomach a little bit. I’ve been having a bit of upset stomach on and off today with my gallbladder hurting me. I also been having CRPS pain in my foot, mostly bone pain. I took a pain med so I am kind of scattered right now. I need to read a few pages of psych. Tomorrow I will figure out how to set up the apps for my courses. For some reason, it didn’t automatically load.

Labor Day 2025

I got up late as I was up most of the night. I was tired but I just couldn’t sleep. I thought about reading but my brain wasn’t too awake. I had a cup of coffee. My sister made a few pumpkin breads and something with zucchini. She also made a pasta salad and some salsa. My other sister was having a BBQ. It was good. I ate too much. I had to have a burger though. That was the last thing I ate. My cousins came over. We let the puppy run the yard. She loved it. I love watching her run around. She looks like a race dog.

I am still feeling kind of low and a little overwhelmed with classes starting tomorrow. I haven’t done anything today and my sister just threw my laundry on my bed so now I got to clear it off again. I have a mountain of clothes. I have no idea what to do with them. I don’t have a dresser to put them away. So frustrating.

Sox game just ended. We won. Now I can concentrate on reading before bed. I need to finish the chapter before tomorrow so I can read the other material. I plan on alternating days of working on my classes. I still need to get my Econ book in order. It’s still in the package.

I saw my nephew and niece today. I was so happy. I haven’t seen him in so long. I miss him so much. The puppy is barking her head off for some reason. She probably sees something. I am so tired. If it wasn’t so late, I would make another cup of coffee. I only had one cup today. I feel so drained. I need to take some miralax because my bowels aren’t moving despite taking senna every day. I think the weight loss drug is making me constipated. I hate not going every day.

I was in a depressive funk most of the day. My cousin’s birthday was today and I was invited to her party but I couldn’t be bothered with getting dressed. It seemed too much. I only was able to do my meds. I never got around to finished my chapter or getting my Econ book set up or brushing my teeth. I was just feeling really low.

My stomach was so so today. I was able to have two cups of coffee. I also had a rice bowl. Then my brother in law called me for dinner. He made jerk chicken. It was OK but salty. I only had one piece as my stomach started to hurt.

Sox had a day game and they won. Duran had his first inside the park homer and I was so happy. I knew he was going to be able to do it. He has so many triples. He just flies around the bases.