midnightdemons7

You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath

I woke up early. I don’t know what time because I didn’t look at my phone. I can’t remember if I had to pee but probably had to. I couldn’t get back to sleep. Then the construction people started and the workers were yelling in Spanish or some language. It was going to be a long day. My sister sent me a text. I didn’t read it until my med alarm went off an half hour later. She was going to take me shopping. I didn’t have coffee, I just brushed my teeth and got dressed. The store went fine. They didn’t have my soup that I love. I got the ingredients for the broccoli chicken rice casserole but forgot the shredded cheese. I almost forgot the sour cream too but I remembered after I got the chicken. I paid for my things and waited for my sister who was still shopping. I went out one door and she went out the other. I met her at the car after she called me.

I had a cup of coffee when I got home. I was cleaning the filter contraption and one of the clips broke. I had to buy a new one so I made the coffee at my sister’s. I didn’t eat anything but I felt really full. After I finished my coffee, I went up to study some. I went over the questions in the discussion. I wasn’t really focusing. I bookmarked the guy we were supposed to know. I will do more tomorrow. I might write down the question answers tomorrow so I know them.

I realized I forgot water so I bought water and a few other things. I got some more Powerade at the grocery store as I wasn’t having luck getting it delivered. I just got five bottles of my favorite flavors. When I ordered the water, I ordered five more. I also got some Starbucks drinks because I have been craving them. I miss not having a store near me. But they are on strike so I really don’t want to buy from them until the workers get what they deserve.

I realized today my tastes and my niece’s ex are the same. I thought it was my sister that was eating my cheese but it wasn’t. I made a chicken sandwich and then went downstairs with eggnog, alcoholic and non, to my sister’s as she was decorating her tree. I got drunk pretty quickly as the alcoholic eggnog was strong. She then made dinner and my stomach is so full right now that I know I am going to be up in the middle of the night with a belly ache and reflux. I am so tired. I am listening to Taylor. I was listening to Thomas Rhett as he posted some videos on his Fenway concert on YouTube. I have some of his albums. I thought I had all but there are like three or four I don’t have. I don’t have the money to get them all. Luke Combs is coming out with new music soon and I rather get his music as I do have all but one of his albums. I just got to figure out which one I am missing.

Still depressed and down

I woke up a few minutes before my med alarm would go off. I took my meds and used the bathroom. Then I went back to sleep. I didn’t want to do anything today. There was dog poop in the kitchen when I went downstairs. I wasn’t going to clean it up.

My sister called me about 1ish. I decided to get up. The poop was still in the kitchen. I made my coffee. Her daddy was in the bathroom so I waited till he was out to tell him to pick it up. It was freezing outside. I don’t think the temps got above 18 today. I had one cup of coffee. I wasn’t hungry and I really wasn’t thirsty. I took my weight when I got back to my room. I lost a little.

I went back to bed. I didn’t want to do a damn thing today. I submitted the questions early in the morning as I couldn’t sleep. I read for a bit till 3am. I was tired and stressed out. I decided to order some half and half as I didn’t get it yesterday. I also tried to order some more Powerade. The things I wanted most were not available. I was so upset. But I got chocolate chip cookies which were good. I made a chicken sandwich and then had some cookies. I finished off the container of dates with my coffee.

I’ve mostly been in bed today. I tried to sleep but didn’t really succeed. Tomorrow when I go grocery shopping I will pick up the stuff I need for the chicken broccoli casserole I like. I haven’t made it in a while and it will be good for a few days. I got such a headache. This is like the sixth day in a row I have had a headache. I don’t know if it is because I am not hydrating enough or what. I have been sneezing my head off so my congestion hasn’t helped.

Depressed today

I have been in bed most of the day. I just don’t want to do anything and I NEED to study. There is a lot of stuff to go over. I am kind of overwhelmed and I am trying not to be or nothing will get done. I just feel so worthless. I’ve been staring at the laptop for hours and nothing has been done. I started working on it at like 3 this morning when I couldn’t sleep. I was just tossing and turning. I need to create four multiple choice questions for the sections we were assigned. Then post them. Should be easy but I am having the hardest time.

I stayed in bed as late as I could. I wasn’t hungry or thirsty but wanted coffee just out of habit. I was up like every two hours to pee and I leaked each time I got up. I don’t know why I had such urgency. I ended up taking a shower after I had my coffee. The pup wasn’t home yet. I had to open the door for her daddy.

After I showered, I went up to my room to get dressed as I didn’t bring any clothes down. I just wrapped the towel around me. I ordered some stuff on Instacart and will never do so again. Instead of getting half and half, I got a watermelon. Corn muffins were replaced with English muffins. I was not happy. Now I got to go back to a store and get the right things. My sister is going to take me Saturday when she is off work. I hadn’t eaten yet so I ordered a roast beef sandwich and they gave me the wrong sauce. I am not having a good day with ordering stuff.

Tomorrow is going to be wicked cold and I got to pick up something at the pharmacy. I haven’t been out all week. Next week I am busy all week and I have the exam to take. I just wish my brain would function so I can focus on what I need to fucking do to get this done.