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Woke up late

Without meaning to, I woke up around 1pm. I slept through the night ok. I don’t know why I slept so late. I just couldn’t get up. I have a bad toothache. It has been hurting the past few days but today it is really bad. I took some ibuprofen but it hasn’t done anything so I took some pain meds. I am waiting for it to work.

I wanted to go out to get some burgers but had no energy. I made some hot dogs. The first bite I took set off some wicked pain in my tooth. I also made some baked beans. It kind of exploded in the microwave and I had a mess to clean up. I don’t think I will be eating anything more today. It is just too painful.

Yesterday I called SSA to see if they could update my record to male and was told I had to go in the office with the necessary documents. Fucking A. Walking to the office is a bitch. It’s like half a mile from the station. But there is now a Starbucks there so I can get some decent java on the way there. I wanted to call the therapy place but never did. I didn’t call today either. Maybe I will tomorrow.

Pain meds finally kicked in and I am having minimal pain. I know it probably will come back when the meds wear off. What sucks is that it is on my right side of my face and I sleep on my right side. My face is slightly swollen. I need to find a dentist that will do some work without charging me a lot of money for it. I really should look into a dental school for care. I need to call them and I hate making phone calls.

I have nothing to do this week. I see the social worker at my PCP’s office Thurs. It’s just a check in. I should read my textbook. I have been feeling off the past few days where I don’t feel like do anything. I just want to lay down. It is so hard for me to do things. Last night after the game, I had a hard time going to sleep so I read Moby Dick. I took a trazodone and it worked quicker than expected. I wanted to read to chapter 100 but after chapter 98, I had to go to sleep. I probably will be done with the book by the end of the month. I have 36 chapters left.

Headaches are still around. Wish they would fucking stop.

Saturday Blog 10082024

The midnight demon strikes again! I was up between 2 and 4. I had to use the bathroom and I couldn’t go back to sleep. I read for an hour. I contemplated just staying up but then the Ativan kicked in and I was able to get back to sleep. I woke up with my med alarm at 8 and been up since. I had some weird dreams. I had a headache this morning but it was due to sinuses. I took some Sudafed. I also had taken a gaba as I was having pins and needles on my head. I feel kind of foggy today because of it.

I wanted to go to Starbucks today but I just couldn’t get going. It is really hot outside and humid. I decided I would read my textbook in my room but haven’t made time for it yet. Game is on in an hour so maybe afterwards I will read a chapter.

My sister was having coffee and told me to come down. I was having my third cup and went down. She was doing stuff for the bridal shower. I had finished my cup and decided to have another one. I had my sister’s coffee that had an espresso roast. It got me wired. I am so awake from it. My head is buzzing so bad. We had something to eat and then I went upstairs. I just realized I forgot my half and half there. I will get it tomorrow, unless my bro in law brings it up. I asked him to take me to the grocery store tomorrow as I need more. I also want to get the ingredients for Shepard’s pie. Just found out by my sister, my bro in law doesn’t know the area so I will be taking a cab there tomorrow. I might go by T and then take a cab home as Sunday buses will be few and far in between. It’s going to be another hot day and I don’t want to be out long with a carton of half and half and other perishables.

I had half a sandwich at my sister’s and now I am hungry again. Damn gaba is increasing my appetite. Tomorrow we will be going to brunch for my niece’s fiancé birthday. It’s my only chance to see her. I haven’t seen her in a couple of weeks. I miss her. I have to get up and pretend to be a morning person. This is going to be hard. Hopefully after I have a coffee I will be pleasant.