midnightdemons7

A new page and other stuff

I created a page for my new book. https://midnightdemon.com/dont-call-me-daughter-out-now/

Hope you get to visit it.

Yesterday when my groceries came, on the first trip up the stairs, I tripped. I hurt my sprained ankle and elbow. I sent a message to my pcp about the sprain as it has been two months and they put in a referral for PT. I also asked them about the sleep specialist and they put in a referral for that too. I don’t know how long it will be for appointments. PT will probably be in the next few weeks.

My brother in law called me this morning as my sister is sick with a migraine. I went down to see her. She was lying down and could barely talk. She was not feeling well. She had been vomiting and was nauseous. She also felt dizzy. I hate when a migraine hits like that.

I went back to my room after I had a couple cups of coffee and some oatmeal. I crashed. I laid down for about three hours. I was supposed to go pick up my blood pressure meds but I never went. I tried to get them delivered but the stupid app isn’t giving me that option. I know I have enough meds to get me through another week. I can pick them up on Mon.

Today is my nephew’s birthday. We will be celebrating tomorrow. I can’t believe he is 30. He is still my little guy. I don’t care that he is taller than me.

Frustrating day

I woke up earlier than I wanted to. I was up when my sister got up, which can be a bad thing some days. I took my meds and then had coffee. My sister didn’t leave for work until around 930. I was working on my second cup by then. I checked the amazon package that was delivered and it was my biscuits. I was already halfway done with my second cup so I didn’t have them. I wanted them though. I figure I would have them with my next cup.

I went upstairs and logged on my laptop. It wouldn’t connect to the internet. It kept bringing up a page but wouldn’t connect. I restarted and still had the same problem so I called. Apparently, my account was overdue and shut me off. Rude. I just sent them a payment yesterday but it hasn’t been recorded yet. They restored my services. They asked when I would be able to pay the next bill and I said the 24^th. I only wanted to see if I had any new sales on my book so I logged on with my hotspot on my laptop as it was going to take an hour for my services to be restored. I tried two different apps to have my account but because I am not FIOS or a Verizon wireless customer, I can’t log in with my account. Fucking fuck. So I created an account for nothing.

I made lunch as I was hungry. I didn’t have breakfast. I ordered my groceries and it was still early enough to have them delivered same day. They will be coming in about an hour from now. I figure I try and blog before it arrives. I made a bacon sandwich and I was topless. I didn’t think about this until the pan started splattering. OOPS. Luckily, it was just my arms that got splatter. The sandwich was good but I really wanted turkey bacon. I went to two stores and they didn’t have it yesterday. So I was stuck with regular bacon. It was still good but messy. It is hot in my kitchen so I don’t know if I will have bacon fat congealed or not. I am trying to save my energy for going up and down the stairs when my delivery comes. I was really tired after I cooked. I had to rest for a few. I kept on getting notifications on my phone but they weren’t from Peapod. I had difficulty with that app too. It wouldn’t give me the order status after it sent me the pdf of my order. I had no idea what time my delivery would be expected within the window I picked. It didn’t load until after 3pm. I was annoyed because I had to change my password, again. Then, because I had changed the password and then logged in with my phone browser, it wouldn’t let me connect with the app because I was “already logged in on another device”. UGH.

Sox game last night got suspended because of the weather. I thought they would play today but they aren’t. I keep thinking today is the 26^th and it isn’t. It is AUG 26^th when the game will resume. I was confused. I also was disappointed there is no game today. I texted my DMH worker about my mood and sent a message to my psychiatrist. The DMH worker told me to contact some service if I need to connect with someone over the weekend. It’s the same service as the therapy place gave me. I am not in crisis but I just feel so low and I hope I am not going downhill. I always worry when things are ok for too long. My mood has been dipping around 530pm every night for at least two weeks. Yesterday it was so hard to write and read.

Wicked hot today

It’s in the 90s today. I had to go out to get my meds. I had my coffee and then I brushed my teeth. I checked the bus schedule and a bus would be coming soon. I got dressed and left. It was so hot out. I wanted turkey bacon but the two stores I went to didn’t have it. I got regular bacon instead. I also picked up my poster for my pcp’s office. Now I just got to wait for the books to come in.

I feel so shitty from the heat. I keep trying to rest but can’t really. I need to shave my head today and am finding it hard to get the energy after I went out. I feel sleepy but I can’t sleep. I feel kinda anxious. I only had one cup of coffee today. I want to make an iced coffee but I never got the chance and it is after 4 now so too late. I need to cool down. I bought two Gatorade hydrate bottles as it was on sale at the pharmacy. I had a $10 coupon so I used it. It was like getting them for free.

I don’t have any appointments this week. I am just going to try and spend some time reading. I am almost done with the library book. I think I have like 5 chapters left. I didn’t read yesterday. I ended up going to bed soon as the ballgame was over. I was tired. I slept ok even though I had a weird dream about taking Italian 102. I kept going from the classroom to the hospital. It was weird. My allergies are somewhat okish today. Yesterday I had to take another Allegra because they were bad. I kept on sneezing like crazy. I had a sneeze attack this morning soon after I got up but it settled down after I took my meds.