midnightdemons7

Zoom class today

We got a message from the psych professor that today’s class would be on zoom. I was excited because that meant I didn’t have to leave the house. I wanted to read but I’ve had a headache all day. Class was good. I am glad it isn’t going to be on the exam. There is just three chapters for the exam. I am trying to work my way through chapter 6. It’s a lot of reading.

I went and picked up my meds after class. I figure if I didn’t do it, I wasn’t going to leave the house and I needed the meds. It was nice out but the wind made it cold. I am feeling frustrated by all that I need to do for school and am just overwhelmed that it’s freezing me. I don’t know what to do first. I took my blood pressure today and it was high. So I waited a couple of hours and then took it again. It was a little lower but still high so I sent a message to the NP about it. It was high the other day, too. I sent the message around 4 so I probably won’t hear from them until tomorrow. I hope this damn headache is gone by then.

I slept ok last night. I didn’t go to sleep till after 11pm. I woke up a few times but didn’t stay up too long. I didn’t get out of bed till 1230. I was still tired when I woke up. I had a cup of coffee with some biscuits. I wanted cold cuts so my sister got some and we had dinner together. She hurt her ankle the other day and it’s pretty swollen. I feel bad for her. I think she sprained it. She then misgendered me right as I was leaving. She called me sister, then sister brother and left it at that. I didn’t say anything. I just grabbed my dish and went upstairs.

I want to go to bed but it’s early. I have no energy to read but I got to read a little something to get through this chapter. Then I can take the self-assessment test. I am hoping to be able to do this by Saturday. I have no idea when I will be reading Anthro. I am so behind in that class because I am putting all my effort in my psych class.

Overwhelmed and anxious

Today didn’t go as expected. I had a phone update and installed it and it brought my phone back to sleep mode which for some reason, disabled my med alarm. It didn’t go off so I slept until 1030, which meant I had to scramble to change my NP appointment to virtual as there was no way I was going to be in Boston in 30 mins. I ended up staying home from class and did my psych work. I finished chapter 5 and wanted to start chapter 6 but I got wicked tired. I couldn’t concentrate. A friend in my class sent me a text saying the test has been moved to next week so I am grateful.

I came upstairs and was trying to figure out how to load my paper for my Anthro class. I even called tech support and they couldn’t figure it out either. I had to wait for the professor to write me back. Then I tried to load it through my phone and it worked. Mission accomplished. I tried to nap afterwards and was greeted with anxiety that hasn’t calmed down.

I haven’t been eating too good the past couple of days. I had half a bologna sandwich today and some boiled dinner. I think it was enough so I took my Latuda. I didn’t take it yesterday because I didn’t eat anything yesterday. I wasn’t hungry. I didn’t even have any chocolate. I just drank Gatorade.

The NP is nice. She wants me to submit two blood pressure readings so I took one today and will take one on Thurs and submit it. I don’t see my pcp again till June. I am glad she didn’t ask about therapy as I am still very mad at my therapist and refuse to see her. I don’t have a plan of action so might as well not see her. Every time I think about making an appointment with her, I think about what to talk about and can’t really come up with anything.

I am so tired of being in pain. My foot and mouth hurts, for different reasons. I am just tired of being tired. Not sleeping has really taken a toll on me. I hope I get better sleep tonight.