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Need a nap

I woke up when dawn hit my window. It got really bright in my room because I have the window open. I just turned over and tried to go back to sleep but couldn’t. I just stayed in bed till around 1130. I made two cups of coffee and contemplated what time to get dressed for my appointment. It is hot out so I debated wearing a tank top but I didn’t want to expose my scars to sunlight so opted for the tshirt.

I missed the shuttle because they moved it again and I didn’t know where it was. I walked to the office. I saw a resident doc and she examined me. She thinks my blood counts might be low causing the fatigue so she is checking it again. I asked for my kidneys to be checked because of the weakness I have been feeling. I was so tired at the appointment. I just wanted to sleep. I took my time walking back to the station afterwards. I was glad I brought a Gatorade with me as I was thirsty. I haven’t eaten today and doesn’t look like I am going to. I am just not hungry. I talked about this with my pcp who checked in with me after I had my blood drawn. I see her next week as a follow up. I need to get my pain looked at. It will be the first time she will be able to look at my ankle since the CRPS has returned. It’s not every day I need the pain meds just like every few days or so. The gabapentin works for the nerve pain aspect of the CRPS but not the physical pain I sometimes get. I hope she doesn’t want me to see a pain doc as that is just useless.

My lab results just came in. Looks like I am anemic. The doc I saw today prescribed me some iron tablets but it isn’t covered by my insurance. I will have to look to see the OTC formula. I hate taking iron tablets because they make me constipated. The doc said I don’t have to take it every day but with my memory, it will be hard to take it every other day. I will find out Monday if I can take the slow release form every other day and then I will get that. It’s expensive though at like 15 bucks for a 60 day supply. I plan on going to the grocery store tomorrow to get some beets and spinach along with some steak if it looks good and not grizzly. Might pick up some burgers, too. I love the Bubba brand that has onions in it. My barber was telling me about them and they are indeed good. I sometimes make them with turkey bacon. Makes a good burger.

Thunderstorms have postponed the game. My pain is up. Ankle is killing me and again, I have nothing to take for it. I saw the pcp today. I will see her next week to discuss. Just sucks. CRPS is not something you can ignore.

Didn’t want to adult today a two parter

I didn’t want to get up today. I had a couple of phone calls to make and I needed to get my meds at the pharmacy. I got up around noon and had a cup of coffee. It was warm out so I decided to do things even though I just wanted to stay in bed. I called my surgeon’s office and made an appointment as my chest is swollen and hard. I then called PT and canceled my appointment so that next week will be my first eval. I hated doing this as my foot was really hurting me this morning. Just another reason why I wanted to stay in bed.

I put my shoes on and left for the bus stop. I was wearing shorts so decided not to change. It was really nice out. The bus came and I debated on getting Starbucks. I couldn’t decide if I wanted a latte, a mocha, or passion tea. So I didn’t get anything. There was a line at the pharmacy. One person was working the register. I hate it when there is a line and only one person at the register. So annoying.

The bus was crowded on the way home. I started to have anxiety. I hate when the bus is crowded. I got off on my stop and enjoyed the walk home. There was a few dog walkers and I loved seeing the dogs. I ordered food and called it a night. I took the Latuda after I ate and was asleep by 8 but I woke up around 1 to pee.

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I had my appointment for my psychiatrist today. I do indeed have major depressive disorder, recurrent, severe with psychosis. I do not have bipolar 2 diagnosis. I am glad I have the same diagnosis from my psychiatrist and therapist.

After my appointment, I got dressed and went to see my surgeon’s NP. The swelling is because of the seroma and should settle down. I should take ibuprofen for pain. I sent a message to my pcp’s office to see if I could get blood work done but I have to be seen. So I will be going back to the hospital tomorrow.

I got a message saying that my prescriptions were ready so I went to the pharmacy when I got off at the Square. I thought about getting a sandwich but really didn’t want to spend 7 bucks on it. I got some Gatorade hydration drink then waited for the bus.

I came home and had the chicken that I made the other day. It has been the only thing I ate today. I haven’t really been hungry the past few days. I lost 9 pounds without meaning to. I just haven’t been hungry.

Sox are off tonight so I probably will read for a bit before turning in. I am really tired and hope I can make it to 8pm.