midnightdemons7

I’ve been in a bad mood all day. I woke up in it. I also have been tired. I slept for a bit after the dog peed and shit in the kitchen. Boyfriend was home so I let him deal with it. I stayed in my room.

I never went out. I didn’t feel like it. I didn’t feel like doing anything. I didn’t even want to contact my friends. Every day I contact them to say hi. Rarely do they initiate contact first.  I don’t care. If we skip a day we skip a day.

Finally got my latuda but it is a 30 day not a 90 day. Ugh. And my pcp is still working on the appeal for the weight loss drug. I’ll pick it up tomorrow. I finally finished definition of suicide so I can start my psych textbook now. I can’t wait to start it.

Some goals done today

I woke up early and would have stayed up but the puppy peed and shit in the kitchen. I didn’t want to clean it up. I left it and told my niece to tell her boyfriend to do it. Either he ignored her or she never told him. Either way, the mess was there a few hours later when I wanted coffee. I cleaned it up but the smell was still present. I was not happy. I didn’t want to do anything. And I had things to do.

I forced myself to make something to eat as I had to make the burger before it went bad. Then I shaved my head. I took off my beard down to a stubble and then took a shower. I had to sit down a few times because I was so exhausted. I didn’t bring my clothes down so I just wrapped a towel around me. It was just me and the puppy home. I tried to find a black pair of shorts but I have no idea where I saw them. I couldn’t find them but found a blue pair. I also thought I threw a pair of underwear on the bed but I didn’t. After I rested and drank some water, I went back downstairs. I played with the puppy then attempted to load the dishwasher. I loaded the dishes and a pan that I used for the burger. There were pans in the sink but they were too big for the washer. My hands were greasy from the shit and I was getting pissed off because of it. I just left the stuff and played with the puppy but she didn’t want any of it. I let her be and went up to my room to cool off. I was sweating my ass off.

I am now cooling off and drinking fluids. I keep getting cramps in my chest. I just took my relaxer. There was a mix up with my meds. For some reason my Latuda got sent to my pcp’s office instead of my psychiatrist. I was wondering why he didn’t send it in. Now I have to wait. I also sent a message about the weight loss drug but haven’t heard back yet. I am hungry again and think I am going to have a salad. It’s my last salad kit that I bought. They are so easy. I love them.

Sunday Dinner

I woke up sneezing my head off and it continued when I went downstairs to make a cup of coffee, I actually made two before going downstairs to my sister’s. I had to go to the basement because I was going to make my lemon blueberry cake but the blueberries went bad when the freezer did. So I added them to my grocery order.

I came upstairs and played my game for a bit then started making my sausage, pepper, onion, and potatoes dish. I asked my sister how to make it as this was my first time. I used one bag of potatoes. It came out good. My niece kept eating the potatoes. She made mac and cheese but I was so full from the sausage dish I couldn’t eat it.

I had a third cup of coffee while the potatoes were cooking. I also had a glass of water because I was so damn thirsty. It was so hot in the kitchen. My cousin came by to shave the back of my neck. It hasn’t been done in a while. I sat outside afterwards and it was cooler on the deck than in the house. I went upstairs and finally bought Mary Chapin Carpenter’s latest album and it is so awesome. So different than her previous albums. I love it. I so want to see her in Sept. If there is tickets still available, I might get one and forgo something.

I am feeling so tired. I had to take a Benadryl. The sneezing is just not stopping. I have no idea why I am sneezing so much. The pollen count isn’t that high, though it is grass and nettle. I am allergic to grass. My nose hurts so much.

I did my meds for the week. I want to shower but there are no clean towels. I just ordered some as for some reason our full cabinet is only down to like 3 towels. They aren’t as thick as I was hoping. I am glad I bought my own pod detergent because we are out. I really want to shower either tonight or tomorrow. I need to shave my head. That will be tomorrow so I might as well shower tomorrow.