midnightdemons7

Sunday Funday 13072025

I didn’t get up when my alarm went off this morning so I didn’t have coffee. I woke up when my cousin called me to say she was outside. Oops. I quickly threw my shoes on and grabbed the things I needed for my cousins. It was a good drive down, not too much traffic. I had a good time. We took pictures, had pizza, and cake. Afterwards, my cousin took us to Starbucks. She needed a coffee. I thought about it but it was after 5pm and I would be up all night if I was and I have an appt at noon tomorrow I don’t want to over sleep for.

I was up in the middle of the night again last night. My sister woke me up as she is never fucking quiet when she leaves her room. Doesn’t help that her door squeaks when she opens it. Because I was in a rush this morning, I didn’t take my morning meds. I am sneezing like a lunatic. I can’t stop. I guess missing that morning allegra does more than I think it does.

I came home and my sisters were judging me. I was out of breath just walking in the door. My sister said something. My cousin gave me my godfather’s shoe shine box and both sisters complained about it. I love that I have it even if I never shine a shoe. Reminds me of the times in the past when these things were important.

I love my cousin’s house. It is the kind of house that I want to have as it is all on one level. The backyard is huge though so I would need a landscaper. The puppy just came up to my room looking for treats. LOL She wouldn’t leave until I gave her some. She ate some dust that was on my floor. She is too funny.

I feel so tired but I keep sneezing my head off. I also ate a lot of food. I had like 3 or 4 slices of pizza plus other stuff. And cake! Game was early this afternoon and now it’s the All Star Break. I hate it because there isn’t a game until Friday. They won today 4-1. Their 10^th in a row. I am so happy they are finally getting games won.

I brought home the leftover pizza. I will have it tomorrow. I also got some squash from my sister’s yard so I will make that too. I got food for the next few days.

Still haven’t left the house

I couldn’t sleep last night as I felt wired. I took some Benadryl and had a wicked hard time getting up when I was supposed to. In fact, I went back to sleep only to wake up around the time of my appt. Oops. I don’t know how much of it was scared of going or not. It is a big deal to me and the thought of being criticized or being told I was too old or whatever was too much. I mean what if I don’t have enough to have what I want? I know it would send me into a suicidal spiral.

I got up and had some coffee. To my surprise, the puppy didn’t hide from me, as she came right when I went down the stairs. I think giving her treats has helped. She gave me a heart attack when I went to my room after my shower as she was in my room. She ate some of my dirty tissues. Thank god she didn’t pee or shit though. She sat for me so I know she wanted more treats but I already gave her a handful.

I’ve felt sick most of the day today. I feel like I am coming down with something. I have been smelling dog pee all day, even in my room. I think I might have tracked it in on my slippers. I have a headache. My neuro got back to me early this morning about the tremors. She thinks it is the Depakote and asked if I wanted to reduce it. I said I will live with it as it is helping my headaches. Risk/benefit was more important to me. Thank god she didn’t want to do an MRI. I hate them. I didn’t do well during my last one. I nearly pushed the panic button.

My sister canceled plans with me tonight to go out after work. I will see her tomorrow as she is taking me to the farmer’s market to get some food. I’ve never been and hope they have more than just vegetables. I am a carnivore and need my protein.