midnightdemons7

I ain’t gonna be that easy to leave

I finally put “make you miss me” on my phone and am playing it on repeat. I still need to get the rest of the album. Might be tomorrow when I get it. I also want to get Trisha Yearwood’s new one. Cam came out with a new album too. So much new music. Taylor was lip syncing Nate Smith’s “Can you die from a broken heart” and I fell in love with it. Avril Lavigne sings along with him and it’s an awesome duet.

I slept through the night, which was rare. I woke up needing to pee but I didn’t get up till my med alarm went off. I had weird dreams. I woke up so tired. I had a cup of coffee which bothered my stomach so I didn’t have a second cup right away. I made something to eat and had a second cup but that really bothered my stomach. I am hurting right now from eating. I didn’t have too much food, just some tater tots and two pieces of chicken. I couldn’t finish the third I made. I will have it later if I get hungry.

I am watching the puppy but she hasn’t stayed still long enough for me to snap a pic of her. I love posting pics of her on my Bluesky acct. She has been good today, so far. I haven’t done much today. I just feel so tired and I don’t know why as I slept pretty good. I really think the new med makes me tired for some reason. I have been slowly clearing my bed. Every time I walk by I remove a few items from it. I have no idea what I am going to do with the clothes. I just pile them in a corner of my room.

I took a shower yesterday and shaved. I was still tired afterwards. I did my meds for the week today. Tomorrow I got to pick up the migraine med if it is ready. It’s out of stock so I hope it comes in tomorrow. I got to give it on Tues. I just have two appts this week, therapy and seeing my DMH worker. It’s supposed to be cool so maybe I will go into Boston to see her. Then I can go to the grocery store to pick some stuff up. I need half and half again. The new med is really interrupting my joy of coffee drinking by upsetting my stomach afterwards. I’ve only been having one cup but today I really needed two. My stomach is killing me right now. For some reason my upper back has been cramping the last few hours. It’s driving me crazy. Laying down hasn’t helped. I can’t find a comfortable position. Sucks.

I will be 50 four months from today. I can’t believe it. A half century old.

I slept really late today. I didn’t get up till 430pm. I had one cup of coffee cause I needed it. Had some oatmeal and then I made sweet potatoes. It was so good but I couldn’t finish them all.

I missed the game. They won 12-1. 3rd game in a row they won against the snakes. Love it. They have one more game tomorrow.

It’s hot today. My electric bill came in. $300. I’ll pay half now and then later the other half. It’s stuffy in my room so need the AC on. I need to fix the curtain cause it fell the other day when it was windy out.

I’m watching the puppy. She is going nuts without her mom here. I don’t know when she will be home.

I took a shower and shaved. It made me so tired. I had to sit down a few times in the shower and I got chest cramps while washing up. Luckily they went away on their own.

I woke up between 4 and 5 and couldn’t get back to sleep. I stayed up and read my textbook. Chapter is so frigging long. I’m still not finished after an hour or so reading. I took my meds around 630. I waited till my sister left for work so I could make something to eat. I was hungry. I made cheesy eggs. I forgot to bring down my coffee so I only had one cup. Then I went up to my room for my appt.

My neuro said her migraine patients have all had difficulty this summer because of the heat. I told her all week I’ve had a headache. She said it was OK to take Tylenol a few days in a row. I had a huge headache today, probably left over from the migraine last night. She wasn’t all that concerned with the shaking but if it becomes bothersome for me we can lower the depakote dose. Otherwise we are sticking with the way the meds are right now. I am to see the NP in Nov and see her again probably in the spring. She will be on maternity leave from Sept to Jan I think she said. Hopefully i won’t have any problems between now and then.

There has been construction going on all morning and the noise is driving me crazy. It is also scaring the puppy at times. I am watching her again. She has been good today, so far. Though she mostly has been staying in her crate. She has been outside to poop but hasn’t peed yet. I don’t think she has been drinking. I want a nap so bad. My head is killing me, which the noise is only aggravating me more. I can’t wait till 3 or 4pm when the workers leave. Will be a quiet weekend as they don’t work.

I’m going to take a shower soon. Still haven’t decided if I am going to shave or not. The new drug is causing constipation and the senna isn’t working. Think I am gonna have to take some miralax. I am down another 2 lbs. I rather lose weight slow than fast.

Ordinary

I am so in love with the song Ordinary by Alex Warren. I have been playing it on repeat since I bought it like two weeks ago. I have been alternating it with Taylor music and Mary Chapin Carpenter. I love MCC’s new album. I am going to take a financial risk by getting tickets to her show when I get paid next. I am hoping the money that I will get from college will be refunded to me by then so it will even out. I bought my books before I got the advance so I am hoping to get that money back.

I have been having a headache for most of the day. I took Tylenol last night so I don’t want to take another dose. I see my neuro tomorrow morning. I hope I can get up early for it and have at least one cup of coffee before the appt. I think the changes in pressure is the reason I have had a headache all week.

I managed to brush my teeth when I got up but can’t decide if I want to shave or not. My goatee is going strong and the beard is filling in. I just need to trim the goatee a bit on my chin. Hair is not filling in quite evenly. I think I need to exfoliate the area to get the hairs to come out. I am just tired and can’t get myself to do it.

My urine culture came back with loaded bacteria but not a particular strain. So I am just going to continue to take the antibiotic for the next few days. I finish it Sunday. Today has been the first time in nearly a week that I haven’t had symptoms. I still have some urgency when I have to go though. I plan on taking a shower tomorrow. Maybe I can groom downstairs some and use my new hair remover cream. I’ve been wanting to see how it is.

The bottom surgery surgeon’s office called today. They had to reschedule the appt. Thankfully it was two days later around the same time. I was worried it might be another month or so before being seen. I have been in an indecisive mood today. I don’t know what to do with myself. I want to read my psych textbook but I need to clean off my bed. I also need to find my damn PJ shorts as they have disappeared. I think they are in with my niece’s clothes. Tomorrow I have my third dose of the weight loss drug which means I get to weigh myself. I will do that after my appt with my neuro. I have been eating less this week. Unfortunately, my coffee intake has taken a hit because after my first cup, my stomach gets upset or I lose the desire for a second cup. I need the second cup of coffee or the chances of me going back to sleep are increased. I had two cups today and I was contemplating a third but it was after 4pm so I didn’t make it. Sox are playing tonight. I plan on listening to the game. They are playing the skankees.