midnightdemons7

So much cooler today

Today was a very nice fall day. It was cool. I managed to shower and shave and then put on long PJs. I shut my fan off as it was too cold in my room. I love this weather.

I had a difficult time sleeping last night. I woke up around 130a to pee and couldn’t get back to sleep. I read my Econ book for a bit and then I read my psych book. I was still up around 6am so I took my meds. I slept a few hours and then got up around noonish. I had my coffee. Then I decided to take my quiz and test. I failed both, though I got a higher grade on my quiz. I had no idea what I was doing on the test. It was graphs and interpreting them. I know I didn’t get them right. I didn’t do anymore school work after taking the quiz and test. I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I was supposed to go to an Open House at campus but I needed to shower and shave. By the time I did that it was too late to leave the house as I would be late.

I played around with my fitness app to see how many calories I have eaten today. I am under 1000. I was hungry so I just had a tuna sandwich. My puppy wanted some but I didn’t give her any. I also guarded my sandwich so she wouldn’t take it. I wanted to make a cup of iced tea but she was staring at my sandwich so I didn’t want to leave it alone.

I see my DMH worker tomorrow. I am hoping to hit Starbucks before the appt. They didn’t close the one at North Station. I think I am going to walk to the green line tomorrow. It’s supposed to be sunny and cool, like today.

Sleepy day

I woke up around 8 to pee and take my meds. I shut off my med alarm and went back to sleep. My phone was surprisingly silent all the time I was sleeping so I was undisturbed. I got up around 130pm. I felt like shit and didn’t want to do shit. I plan on taking a shower tonight. I don’t know if I am going to trim my beard or not. I really want to cut my hair but I don’t have the energy. The beard will take me two seconds.

I had a cup of coffee and played my game. I also petted the pup who was looking pathetic because mom wasn’t home. I let her outside and she sat in one of the chairs all curled up. Her father just came and now she is the happiest pup. I finished the pizza I ordered the other day. Puppy wanted some but I didn’t give her any. I had another cup of coffee as I need to read an Econ chapter. There is test 2 that is due Monday. So I got a quiz and a test due the same day. I also have a shit load of psych to read and do. She kind of explained how the exam was going to be but I didn’t understand it. I hope there is a lecture on it so I can get it. I changed the grading on Econ to P/F. Now I can do the work and hope it is enough to get a passing grade.

I asked the new therapist place how long will I be waitlisted and they said 4 to 5 months. WTF. I don’t think I can wait that long for a therapist. I am going to try the other place where I was and see if I can see someone at my DMH work place. I don’t know if it will be same process. I don’t know if I was “discharged” from services as the therapist I was seeing never texted me back. I think it is so rude not to answer a question by a client. Now I have to call tomorrow to find out. Ugh.

I am so sleepy right now. I don’t want to read but I have to.

Tough day

I woke up around 2 to pee and couldn’t go back to sleep. I started sneezing and that really woke me up. I don’t remember what I did. I wrote an email to a friend. I also took some benedryl because my allergies were killing me. It took more than 2 hours to fall asleep. I did not want to get up. I stayed in bed till almost 2pm. I had to pee again so I got up. I took my meds and brushed my teeth. I had coffee and brought my laptop down to the kitchen so I could do the final thing for psych class. It was hard and I honestly don’t know if I did it right. I got some grades back. I am missing something in psych so need to go back and see if I can submit it. Test 1 for Econ came back and I failed dismally. I wrote to my advisor about possible withdrawing. She said I could take a P/F as I need just a D- to pass the course. I am just not getting the concepts in this class. I have an extra credit thing to do this week so maybe that will help. My writing has yet to fail me. Least I have that going for me.

I feel really down because I don’t feel so smart with me failing this class. I am going to write to the professor and see what can be done. Hopefully she won’t be a hardass. I think if there was lectures explaining what we are reading that would be helpful but there aren’t. I don’t know why the lower level classes are harder for me than upper level. I have a headache with everything I am trying to do.

I have been swarmed with a lot of emails today. I got a half dozen in my private email and about the same for my school. My benefits enrollment period is coming up. I wonder how much my cost per month for insurance is going to be. It’s reasonable right now but it will go up in January. I never really know how much until then. I am surprised I haven’t received the packet giving what’s available and stuff. Maybe it will be this week I will get it.

Taylor’s new album comes out on Friday and I cannot fricken wait. I have my eye appt so will be listening on the train ride there. It is a hike getting to the eye place as it is outside of Boston. They have closed so many eye places. I haven’t been able to find an eye doctor since mine retired. I hope I can afford new glasses if I need them. Makes me nervous. All these expenses. I got to get groceries too. My cart is back up near $300 again. I got to get rid of some stuff. I tend to go a little crazy when I am looking for something. I buy things in different flavors. I think I am going to order the drinks and then go to a cheaper grocery store. My sister said she will take me. I want to get some snacks like cheese.

I have things this week. Tomorrow is my nephew’s birthday and I have a webinar. Wed is a graduate open house at UMB I want to attend. Thurs is DMH worker appt. and Fri eye. Busy. I hope I can keep up with school work.