a shower can help so much

A shower can help so much

My puppy got me out of bed this morning at 9am. She was crying for my attention, literally. I petted her and went downstairs for coffee. As I was making it, I realized I stunk. It has been a few days since my last shower. I had planned on taking on yesterday but never had the energy to do it. So after my coffees, I got my clothes together. I went out on the porch and shaved my head as I needed a haircut. Then I took a shower. It felt so good. I used the body wash stuff that smells nice.

My sisters are in Maine for the weekend. It is just going to be me and the pup unless my niece comes home. I texted her but got no response, which is the usual. The bitchy sister did the pans and stuff I left in the sink last night. I was thankful. But she fed my burger to the pup and I am so mad at her for that. The puppy hasn’t touched her dog food the last few days because she is being fed human food.

I guess I will be eating my casserole instead of a burger tonight. I have to thaw another one out. I am so tired and got a headache. I just had my third coffee of the day. I made it iced because it is warm out. I had to shut my AC off because it is cold in my room. The wind is not making today very warm. I don’t know if the tornado hit or not. I haven’t heard anything. I went to bed around 8 last night as I got a headache and was tired from being up early. The past few days I have been up before 6am. I think it is because I have been going to bed before 10pm. My pain today has been ok. I haven’t had any sneezes so far but my allergies is making my nose run.

I got a call this morning from my long term disability insurance. They received my paperwork but not my PCP’s. They did their annual phone interview with me then after I sent a message to my pcp about the paperwork. I don’t know if the office is open today or not because I didn’t get a response. Today is Juneteenth, a holiday I don’t understand because the Civil War was over in April of 1865, after the 13^th amendment got ratified in Congress. Slavery was ended. So I don’t understand why when the union army entered Texas on June 19^th 1865, they just didn’t use the 13^th amendment instead of the Emancipation Proclamation.

I am really sad and I don’t really know why. I had a meeting with my therapist today and we talked about the song and my mother and being trans. We also talked about crying and how hard it is for me to do it. The last time I cried was the day my mother died, three years ago. I know there was a time I cried because I was happy but that was baseball related. There also was another song, someone you loved by Lewis Capaldi. Such a moving song it had me in tears the first couple of times I heard it. Now I am listening to it because I forgot what it sounded like. I like that I can find it quickly because it is on my most listened to playlist.