Saturday Blog 15082026
I had a sleepy day today. I got up around 1 and had coffee. I had some pumpkin bread with it. Then I brushed my teeth. I cuddled with Honey after. I was trying to snooze again. I had put a load of laundry in and I had to switch the washer for the dryer. I washed my clothes as well as my niece’s.
I didn’t know what to eat so I ate nothing. I thought about making a PB&J but never did. I made corn and ate a few pieces. It was good, nice and sweet. I got another fucking headache today. They are driving me insane. I want to read but I can’t as it just makes my head hurt more. I am listening to music right now and it is soothing. Game is on and I am keeping track of it. I know if I listen to it, I will surely fall asleep. Sox are leading 1-0 right now. They lost last night.
I have been going to bed around 8pm the last few nights and waking up almost 12 to 15 hours later, minus a pee run or two. My suicidality flitters around. I have not acted on the feelings. My despair hasn’t been that great. I just feel hopeless this is ever going to end. It just goes on and on. Each episode is different. I am hypersomnia right now but sometimes I can not be able to sleep at all. I can overeat or not eat. I usually have some form of concentration to read but sometimes I just don’t feel like it because it just feels too much.
I needed to shave today but couldn’t do it. Just managing to brush my teeth was an accomplishment. My foot is starting to hurt again. I hope I don’t have to take pain meds again. I took some ibuprofen and Tylenol for the headache. I didn’t take anything for the headache yesterday. I wish I had fioricet. That shit works but they hate giving it out. Assholes.
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