Back flare up and other stuff
I got up kind of later than I wanted to. I had hoped to be up by 10 so I could do errands before therapy but I got up too late. Therapy didn’t go so well. Supposedly, she will finish the letter for me tomorrow. I hope so or Wed I am texting the shit out of her until I get the letter. We talked about change. I don’t really know about it to do it. I feel I have made changes since I came home from the hospital as my pain is less than it was. I still have pain if I do too much but I don’t go into suicidal depressions like I did when I do have a flare up. I said so and then got she isn’t denying that I have a medical condition. I just think we want different things and I am not sure we will ever be on the same page about them.
After therapy, I checked the bus schedule. Bus was going to be here soon so I just put my sneakers on, grabbed a recycle bag and headphones, then left the house. I got to the Square and did my errands. I had to wait for the bus home. It got crowded and I stood for most of the way home then walked home. My legs were not cooperating with me. I have no idea why they were aching me. I got to the street that I swear turns into a mile even though it isn’t and I was tired by the time I got to my street. I had picked up a breakfast sandwich at Starbucks and ate it when I got to my kitchen. The dishwasher had to be emptied and the pans washed. I finished eating and then did them. But holy hell, my back flared up. I tried to continue doing them, taking a break in between but it was no good. I stood for too long and paid the price. I am not going to do anything more. I put the stuff from the dishwasher away and then went up to my room. I remembered to grabbed a cup as I need to take Miralax. I am hoping the bloated feeling is because I haven’t moved my bowels well the past few days.
I was going to shave today but I think I will wait for tomorrow to do that. I need a shower so that can be the activity for tomorrow. I don’t have anything planned so I can rest most of the day if I choose. My Starbucks funds are running low so I don’t plan on leaving the house. I have to do some grocery shopping on Friday. Wed I might go out after I see the lawyer for the estate of my house. We are finalizing some stuff. My sisters want to go away for Christmas but I am not going to be able to afford it. One of my nieces vetoed going to the islands so now they are thinking something out of state. I just worry about snow storms during that time of the month.
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