cranky and pissed off

Cranky and pissed off

Monday when I met with my therapist she said would finish the letter for me and then send it to me on Tues. I never heard from her so texted her today and have gotten no response. I am so pissed. I dropped my classes because I wasn’t able to get financial aid. I tried to see if the class was still open and its not. I am really frustrated.

I tried calling the department of mental health to see the status of my application and I got hit with an answering service that just hung up instead of beeping to leave a message. I was able to call another number and leave a message. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I dreaded making the phone call.

I just wanted to stay in bed today but I had to see the lawyer to sign some paperwork for the house. I can’t believe I am a homeowner now. I miss my mother and wish she wasn’t dead. I knew we would become owners when she died but I never thought it would be now. Just sucks.

I didn’t know what to make for lunch. I heated up some chicken patty and made fries. Now I feel really bloated. Wish I stuck to plan of just drinking Ensure and coffee all day. I still need another cup but it is after 1630 so maybe I won’t. I hate that I get bloated with anything in my stomach now.

The guy on facebook met up with me today so we can try and trap one of the cats in our yard. He showed me how to work the trap. Seems simple enough. Just hope my brother in law doesn’t have a cow when he comes home. The cat we want to capture comes around 9pm or so. I will have to be on alert to watch the trap afterwards. We agreed tomorrow will be best as the cat can sniff around the trap and not be scared by it.

I got an email from my therapist. Finally the letter is ready. I uploaded everything so now they should be set. Now I wait for a response. I hope I get something so I can take classes in the Spring semester. I have no idea what I am going to take other than Italian 102, which I hope I can still take. I am doing well with the Duolingo but the problem is it isn’t telling me the rules for Italian grammar and what kind of “the” goes before something. It is a little frustrating. There have been times where I just quit the module because it will say something so fast and I know my brain can’t translate it or spell it right. I can read Italian. I have a harder time understanding when it is spoken to me. You have to speak slow for me to understand and comprehend what is being said. Otherwise, forget about it. I am not getting it.

I am so fricken tired. Sox are playing tonight. I plan on listening to the game. Last night they lost so bad. I had to stop listening after the 6^th run scored for the other team. It was sad.