feeling like shit 18082023

Feeling like shit

I woke up a couple times during the night and morning. I just didn’t want to get out of bed. I had a slight headache. My sister called me between 1 and 130 so I decided to get up. I brushed my teeth. Then set out for some coffee. My middle sister was being a complete bitch. She sent some ableism text messages to me and she just doesn’t get that I am disabled. She thinks cause I do things one day, I can do them every day. That isn’t the case. I am so fucking pissed. She works for a primary care office. I pity the person that comes in disabled to her. She is so fully of ableism it isn’t fucking funny.

I slept most of the day yesterday. I woke up in the middle of the night and crashed around 545a. The Sox were a disappointment. They lost again. Tonight we are playing the Skankees so I am not sure how it will be. They suck so we might have an advantage but I am not sure. We haven’t been able to beat sucky teams. So frustrating.

My therapist responded to the message I sent her yesterday about the DMH paperwork. She thinks what I checked off is good to start with. So I will mail that off hopefully tomorrow if I am up before noon. The post office closes at 1 so if I am up, I will go. Otherwise, it will have to wait until Monday.

I don’t have plans for the weekend. I hope my bitchy sister doesn’t start with me. She will be home as she doesn’t work weekends. I hate it. But there is nothing I can do about it. I got a new book that I am reading so I plan on spending time reading. I might go to Starbucks. I don’t know. Depends on how I feel. These headaches have been brutal. I hope they are behind me now.