Saturday Blog 02092023

When you are consumed by thoughts, write. When you are uninspired, read. -Poetry Matters

I slept a couple of hours last night and then was up all night. I didn’t go to bed till around 0600. I tried to install my toner for the printer but it wouldn’t get in. I spilled toner everywhere and it was a huge mess. Then I put the old toner in and tried to print something but the paper wouldn’t load right. I think I broke my printer. I feel really shitty.

I got about four hours sleep and then couldn’t go back to sleep. I got up and had some coffee. I folded the laundry I didn’t get a chance to do yesterday. Then headed to my room to do my meds for the week. I feel so depressed. Last night as I was up, I read what I wrote for my memoir and it just stirred things up. I have no idea what to write. I have covered most of the things transgender people go through. I haven’t written about the process for name change though. I don’t expect that to be more than a few pages. I don’t know what else to write.

I have been feeling depressed all day. My sister took us out to eat and I had some vodka watermelon drink. I am sort of drunk. We went to my hometown East Boston and ate at Santarpios. Best pizza ever. Their steak tips were good too. I was eating mindfully as I didn’t want to choke. They had round bread and omg it was so damn good. Reminded me of when we used to get it up when I was a kid.

I am tired now. Game starts in a little bit. They lost last night to a 3-15 pitcher and I was pissed. I am losing interest. Today was the first day of starting college football. Ohio State won their first game. Nebraska lost theirs.