Rotten sleep on a dreary day
I woke up around 0430 with a headache. It was the second of the night. I stayed up to read a bit as I didn’t feel sleepy. I took my morning meds around 0630 and then went back to sleep for a few hours. I got up to make some coffee. I brushed my teeth before heading to the kitchen. I had therapy in a few hours. While drinking my coffee, I called the pharmacy to see if my pain meds were in stock. They told me to call after 5pm. I was bullshit. I had waited all weekend. If I waited till after 5, I wouldn’t be able to contact my doctor until tomorrow. I sent a message telling them the situation. They said they were happy to transfer it to another location. I called the one around the corner from me and they have it in stock. I should hopefully get it tomorrow.
I had therapy. I wasn’t too talkative. I had a slight headache. My nephew is burning a candle and scents usually give me a headache and cause me to fucking sneeze my head off. It is irritating my nasal passages. Nothing major went on in therapy. We talked about grief and the trans joy I felt briefly. We are going to continue the EMDR next week. I don’t know if it will be the same memory or if we will work with a different one.
I worked on my book for a little bit. I wanted to write about my suicidality but the scent of the candle is making the headache worse so I can’t think. It is raining. I haven’t shaved or showered. I wanted to but now don’t have the energy. I just want to sleep but it’s only 5pm. I want some chips but I have no snacks. I made mac and cheese for lunch. Not really sure what I will have for dinner, if anything. I just want to fucking sleep but I know if I try and sleep now, I will be up all night again. Fucking sucks.
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