Another migraine attack today
I kept on having bad dreams last night. I woke up from one of them looking for my cell phone to tell my nephew to turn down his game but when I woke up, there was silence so I knew it was a dream and not real. It felt so damn real. I was upset because the dream had gunfire in it. I fell back to sleep and when I woke up, I had the worst migraine in a month. I couldn’t see it was so bad. It was just before 7. I really wanted to see my cousin so I went downstairs to make a cup of coffee, hoping that if I stayed up, the headache would go away. It eased up after the coffee but I was still hurting. Around 8, I texted my cousin saying I couldn’t make it. I was hurting too bad.
I managed to sleep a few more hours and I felt a little better when I woke up between 11 and 12. I made a turkey sandwich and coffee. I had some messages to sort through. My sister texted me and wanted to know the location of my friend’s mother. She is buried in the same cemetery as my mother. They died within a week of each other. I still haven’t grieved her loss. It has been hard to with the loss of my mother. It has been a long time since I spoke to her. I can’t remember the last time I did. I think it was when my friend was still living with her, which has been a long time. I’ve known my friend for nearly all of his life. I am older by four months.
I got a weird call that was probably spam that left a message on my voicemail. Apparently, Spectrum is reducing my monthly bill by 50%. Just wish I knew what spectrum was or is LOL. I also got a call from a nurse at my health insurance. Not really sure what they want as I haven’t had a hospitalization since June and ED visit wasn’t since Aug or Sept. Usually it is in response to some health thing.
I am having a panic attack right now as I try to figure out how to pay things on my income for this month and next month. I will have to pay for my meds, which isn’t going to be easy. I have $30 cash right now that I will use for it. Some money needs to go towards my month T pass so I can go to campus for one of my classes. I was thinking about getting there early the first day of class to update my ID and get a thing for the library, if they still do that. It has been a long time since I was a student. I am nervous about it. I am glad I am not having classes now because I would most likely fail. I am so depressed and barely leave the house. I won’t be able to put Starbucks money on my card. I still need to pay double this month for insurance. I haven’t received the invoice yet, which should be coming either today or Monday. Ugh. I can only stretch my income so many ways. I still don’t know if I can afford groceries this month.
My anxiety is also flared up with the layout of the UMB campus. One of my classes is at University Hall which didn’t exist when I attended back in 2008. I sent a message to the one stop place to see if they can show me around campus. I have no idea if I will need to update my vaccinations or not. I got a thing from my pcp but it is mostly just covid and tetanus. I am up to date on my vaccination; just need proof of them.
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