Another no sleep night

Insomnia struck again last night. I woke up to pee and it was all over. I finished my chapter and tried working on my anthro paper. I still need 250 words and I am having trouble finding them. I have less than a week to submit it. I have no idea what time I fell asleep but I know it wasn’t long as my med alarm woke me up. I slept for about a half hour before having to get up and pee again. I drank a lot during the night. I was really thirsty for some reason.

I sent my therapist memes and she got mad. She said we need to work on my needs, or not. I sent her a text saying I wouldn’t bother her anymore unless it was to make an appt. She got me so fucking mad.

I am starting to feel overwhelmed. There is a lot of stuff to remember in my psych. I still need to read the anthro articles which take me 3 hrs per article because they are so dense and long. I need to read the next psych chapter that we are on. I haven’t heard back from the TA on meeting her. She is lecturing the class tomorrow because the professor had surgery during spring break. I just feel so fucking useless.

I am wicked tired. I honestly just want to go back to sleep but I’ve only been up for almost 2 hrs. This insomnia shit is terrible. I asked my psychiatrist for more trazodone. I just feel like if I can’t get decent sleep I am just going to fall behind in my classes. I’m already struggling in anthro. And to make things really stressful, my hair is falling out. At the rate it’s falling, I’ll be bald by September. I have no idea what to do with my hair, if I should get a wiffle or still try and keep it long on top. I don’t know.  I’ll see my barber next week and decide then.