overwhelmed and anxious

Overwhelmed and anxious

Today didn’t go as expected. I had a phone update and installed it and it brought my phone back to sleep mode which for some reason, disabled my med alarm. It didn’t go off so I slept until 1030, which meant I had to scramble to change my NP appointment to virtual as there was no way I was going to be in Boston in 30 mins. I ended up staying home from class and did my psych work. I finished chapter 5 and wanted to start chapter 6 but I got wicked tired. I couldn’t concentrate. A friend in my class sent me a text saying the test has been moved to next week so I am grateful.

I came upstairs and was trying to figure out how to load my paper for my Anthro class. I even called tech support and they couldn’t figure it out either. I had to wait for the professor to write me back. Then I tried to load it through my phone and it worked. Mission accomplished. I tried to nap afterwards and was greeted with anxiety that hasn’t calmed down.

I haven’t been eating too good the past couple of days. I had half a bologna sandwich today and some boiled dinner. I think it was enough so I took my Latuda. I didn’t take it yesterday because I didn’t eat anything yesterday. I wasn’t hungry. I didn’t even have any chocolate. I just drank Gatorade.

The NP is nice. She wants me to submit two blood pressure readings so I took one today and will take one on Thurs and submit it. I don’t see my pcp again till June. I am glad she didn’t ask about therapy as I am still very mad at my therapist and refuse to see her. I don’t have a plan of action so might as well not see her. Every time I think about making an appointment with her, I think about what to talk about and can’t really come up with anything.

I am so tired of being in pain. My foot and mouth hurts, for different reasons. I am just tired of being tired. Not sleeping has really taken a toll on me. I hope I get better sleep tonight.