semester winding down

Semester winding down

I went to class today. There are just two more left for the semester. I saw NP this morning for my chest pain. X-ray showed some calcification and I waiting to see if that is why I am in pain. I didn’t take any pain meds this morning before leaving the house. I didn’t even have coffee because I got up late. The Starbucks by my pcp’s office is still under renovations so I had Dunkin coffee which was not that good. I didn’t even finish it.

I was starving when I got out of class so ordered some pizza. It was okay. I’ve had better. I am wicked tired. I had a hard time sleeping last night. I used the bathroom around 2 and couldn’t go back to sleep. I read my psych textbook and then was able to get back to sleep. I thought about staying up but I knew around 7ish I would feel tired. I woke up again before 9 to pee. I think I might have a UTI as the urge has been wicked strong. Part of the reason I lost control of my bladder the other day was because I just couldn’t hold it anymore. I really tried. Now I am having symptoms and I hate it. I had to use my sister’s bathroom last night and this morning because someone was in the bathroom when I had to go. I didn’t want to pee my pants again so I went downstairs.

I had therapy yesterday and I am still thinking about why I am in therapy. I have been with the same therapist for almost five years. Some days, therapy goes ok and other days I wonder why I am in it. I know I probably need a different therapist as mine is just not helpful. But then I think, what if I run into the same issue with another therapist? What then?

Game will start in about fifteen minutes. I will listen along and hope I can stay awake. I need to take my night meds soon. I am planning on finishing up studying for psych tomorrow. Not sure if I will go to Starbucks or not. Depends on what time I get up. I have been having a hard time getting up before 10am most days. This needs to change of there is no way I am going to be able to make my 11am class in the fall. I am not a morning person. It’s going to be difficult. I just tried to get it from the app and it has another program on. I can either turn on the radio and listen or just follow along for highlights…

I got a call from DMH today. I finally have a case worker. I meet with her on Friday. She sounds okay. Maybe she can help me sort out my therapy situation. I kind of lost the reason why I am going other than I need to but the why isn’t clear to me. Stupid pharmacy put in a refill on my sleep meds when I didn’t need it. My psychiatrist ended up giving me a 90 day supply. I canceled the order. I don’t need 90 day supply. I still have 20+ tablets left from what he gave me last month. I haven’t taken any in a week or two because my sleep has been somewhat better. I am going to sleep but just having a hard time staying asleep.