Teenage petulance
My friend in SD just got her copy of my new memoir. She sent a pic with her cat and it was so cute. I love that cat so much. I went out to get a library book that came in for me. A friend on Bluesky recommended a book and I started reading it. It is a short book. I should be finished with it by the end of the week. It is ok. Mindless reading, which is what I need right now. I was reading Who’s afraid of Gender last night and found that the Catholic Church thinks transgender is fiction. Nice. More reason for me to stay away from that denomination.
I came home and had to pee really bad. I just made it to the bathroom. I managed to shave today though I went higher on the sides than I wanted to. One side is higher than the other. A couple of people suggested I shave it off as the bald with a beard look is in. I don’t know because it took so long for the top of my head to grow again and it was painful. I also don’t really like the top short/bald. I almost did take it all off when I fucked up the side. I can only imagine what the back looks like. I didn’t wear a hat when I left the house. I felt naked.
I am really tired. I sent a message to my psychiatrist about feeling this tired and he wants me to bring it up when I see my pcp in a few weeks. Today I tried getting therapy and just got the paperwork to fill out. I have no idea how to save it and then send it back to the person so emailed her again to find out. I hate that I go back and forth between the two when I am fatigued. I never know why I am so tired. I slept ok last night. I should have stayed up but I went back to sleep after I took my meds at 7. I kept dreaming about being back in the lab and wanting to decant so bad. There was someone in heme who was putting things in a centrifuge and was not balancing it right. It was so annoying me. But it was just a dream.
Game is on in like ten minutes. My cousin always seems to call soon as I put it on and then it screwed up the timing of the app. It is already off by a few seconds. I might turn on the radio tonight. I don’t know if I will listen to all nine innings. I feel like if my eyes close for more than a few minutes, I will sleep. I also feel anxious. I don’t know why. I ate pepperoni and cheese for supper, probably not enough calories for the Latuda but I don’t want to make anything else.
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