Blah and hot

Today was really hot. I went to my pcp’s office and dropped off my books. Most of the staff got a copy and I signed each one. By the time I got home, I was soaked. I drank some water and some powerade. I feel like shit and I have flank pain. I haven’t eaten. I am not really hungry. Just really tired. I have a burger if I get hungry later.

I feel really bad mentally. I feel like I would be better off dead. I feel so useless. I got a shitload of financial worries. I made some appts with the social worker so maybe that will be good. I met him today. He seems really nice. He knew me when I was in a rough spot. I didn’t know his name but he knew who I was.

I’m still having chest pain. NP said I could use diclofenac gel for it. I just feel so rotten mentally and physically. It’s exhausting.