game day

Game day

I didn’t want to get up today. I was so tired after being up close to 20 hours yesterday. I had woken up at 3 and couldn’t go back to sleep. I woke up today at 4 and had a migraine because I had disturbing dreams. I see the dream consult tomorrow. I took meds and then managed to get back to sleep. I had to pee around 0830 and after took my meds. I think I slept for another two hours before I got up. I had a cup of coffee. I am not really hungry but am looking forward to hotdogs in a couple of hours.

I went and picked up my meds. I looked at the directions for the Topamax and it’s pretty straightforward. I will start it tonight after the game. I am so excited to go to the game even though I know they will most likely lose. Criswell is pitching and he sucks. He gives up the long ball almost as much as Pivetta but he does it more often. Tonight is Italian night so we hope to get jerseys. It is wicked hot today and I was sweating a lot when I came back home. I have been trying to keep my fluids up so I don’t get a headache.

Last night I had to take an Ativan as I was just a ball of fucking nerves. I couldn’t shut off my brain and the more I tried, the more anxious I got. Then my chest started hurting and I just lost it. I was so upset. I really love having no boobs but being in pain for more than a year post op sucks. I hate that I have to take the Robaxin around the clock in order to get relief. I see the NP in Oct and I am going to ask what I can do about this pain. We have tried a few things but nothing seems to keep it away. Maybe I need some PT or something.

I am tired and I had another cup of coffee when I came home. I still haven’t eaten anything. Nothing seems appealing. I have leftover Buffalo fried cauliflower that is really good and some fries. I also have cookies and some brownies that my cousin gave me. I need a nap.

I need to go to the social security office this week. I just don’t know when I will go. Maybe Thurs if I can get up early enough. I wanted to get up at nine so I can start a routine and failed miserably. Getting up for classes is going to be hard, especially as I need to leave earlier than I wanted to because there are going to be shuttle buses after the first week of classes. It’s going to be a two hour commute coming home and I am not looking forward to it.

I brushed my teeth and shaved my head today. I need to get more razors. I think that will be next month’s expense.