Failing to get moving today
I woke up before my med alarm to pee. I checked my messages and my professor canceled our meeting. There was a glitch in her calendar system. She doesn’t have office hours today, only on Weds. So I scheduled it then. It’s in the morning so I hope I am up. I rested the morning away and didn’t get up till the afternoon. I didn’t sleep most of the night for some reason. I just laid there with my thoughts.
I checked the syllabus after I had a couple cups of coffee. I have to read chapter 19. The Sox season is basically over so I just plan on reading tonight. There is only one week left in the season. There is another discussion for the week. I will do that on Wed.
My headache is gone, finally. I feel better, just feel wicked tired. I wanted to go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds but I have no energy to go out. I will pick it up tomorrow after class. I finally had something to eat today. I didn’t eat yesterday. I wasn’t hungry. I just had two cups of coffee and that was it. It is cold today and I had to shut off the ceiling fan. It’s very windy out. Fall is here, finally.
My mood kind of sucks. I have been wicked depressed with all these headaches/migraines. It’s been very debilitating. I haven’t left the house since Thursday. My pcp wants me to get out of the house more. She thinks I have become deconditioned and that is why I become short of breath sometimes. It’s hard to leave the house when you’re depressed and have a headache. I need to shower and shave today. Also need to brush my teeth. I just don’t feel like doing any of it. I will brush my teeth the next time I use the bathroom. I hate feeling tired all the time. I have no energy to do anything.
It’s nearly the end of the month. I am patiently waiting for the therapy place to call me. I have a feeling they won’t though. Maybe next month. I hope it’s not longer than that. It’s been four months I have been without a therapist. I have been struggling all this month. I am glad I have my DMH worker to help support me. It’s been hard coping when you don’t have a therapist to guide you along.
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