wicked bad terrible day

Wicked bad terrible day

So I woke up feeling fine. No damn headache. I thought it was going to be a good day. Then I went and had coffee. I had to fill up the water reservoir as it was empty. Then I figured I might as well fill the water jug. I still need to change the filter on it. I will do that tomorrow or this weekend. Sounds started to bother me and I started to panic. My tooth has been bothering me the last few days. It was cold in the kitchen as someone had opened the door. I kept it open in case the weather changed. Yesterday it was cold in the morning but got warm by the afternoon.

After I had my two cups of coffee I went to my room and there was someone using a leaf blower and my head just exploded. So much for a headache free day. Hello day 9 of headache land. I messaged my neuro again and said if I didn’t hear back from her by tomorrow, I would go to the ED. Well, she messaged me back with there is nothing she could do as I have allergies. She wanted to know how much gabapentin I was taking so I responded and I haven’t heard back so I guess I am going to go the Ed tomorrow. I don’t know what else to do. I can’t go on like this. So after I got this message I felt defeated so decided to lay down for a bit. The people from therapy called. They wanted to set me up with someone but the time they gave me is the time I have class. I can’t meet. So I am back on the waiting list. Today just sucks and I wish I never woke up. Fucking fuck.

My headache is an 8 out of 10. I just want to lay down. I did study some. I took some notes. I went over the basal ganglia and the limbic system. Then I went over the synaptic transport thing and got confused as fuck. I will ask questions about it tomorrow. We kind of stopped there yesterday. It’s where calcium ions tell neurotransmitters to fire or not. I have to go over the steps.

I have a breakout of zits on my neck. It is so damn itchy. I also have a few on the top of my shoulder. I keep wanting to put some benzoil peroxide on it but I have to take my shirt off as it can stain it but it’s too cold in my room.

I honestly am just going to try and read the library book tonight. If I read a few chapters, I should be able to finish the book by the weekend. I don’t have that much more to read. The chapters aren’t long and I can usually read like three in forty-five minutes or so. It is getting really interesting. I think there are more books in the series. I hope so anyway. It is really good writing. Oh, speaking of writing. My aunt called me yesterday while I was on my way to class. She got my book and loved it, said it was well written. She read it straight through. It made my day! I was so happy. I was kind of nervous because I spoke the truth about how my mother treated me and was worried that now that she died, it was going to be hard to hear with family members. I am glad it wasn’t the case. I am also glad they didn’t want to talk about my suicide attempt that happened two years ago. I often think about it, especially as this time of year, I was in the hospital trying to remember what the hell happened. I was still catatonic and thinking I was a dead person. Strange how being taken off your meds can change your thinking.