stuffed with leftovers and ice cream

Stuffed with leftovers and ice cream

I woke up a little before 1am to pee and had a hard time getting back to sleep. I was up a few hours before I finally fell back to sleep. Then I woke up around 7ish to pee again. I took my meds and managed to sleep. I didn’t get up till 12ish. I wanted coffee. I went downstairs to my sister’s. She ended up giving me her Keurig. I was thankful. I had another cup of coffee and then went upstairs.

I read the article on cortisol and suicide. It was interesting and I am going to write it up. I just had a ton of food and then I had ice cream followed by a coffee because I wanted something hot. My niece had the door open so the kitchen was cold. Now I don’t feel like doing anything.

I wanted to buzz my hair but I didn’t have the energy to do it. I haven’t been in the mood to do much of anything today. I keep thinking about my paper but not sure where to go with it. I know it will come to me but time is running out and I need a rough draft by Sunday. I only got like 400 words and one page. It needs to be at least four pages.

My bitchy sister came home and was so “supportive”. She said I stink and need a shower. Thanks. Showering was the last thing on my mind today. Maybe if I did my hair, I might have showered afterwards. I am tired and I didn’t do anything all day except drink coffee. I had three cups. The third cup I had with dinner after I had the ice cream. I just wanted something hot. I been feeling kind of depressed today. Been thinking of my mother and father. My niece had a picture of them as her cover and in this pic, I sort of look like my father. I miss my parents. Turkey day was not the same this year. It never will be the same.