busy birthday 2024

Busy birthday 2024

I got up before 10 today. I wanted to go to Starbucks and do a few errands. It was freezing out so I got out my beanie hat. I didn’t know if the walk to the bus stop was going to like. Part of the way was icy and then it was clear. I was careful and did slip a few times but I didn’t fall. I bought new sneakers that had a better grip and are waterproof. I still slipped. Guess there is no match for ice. I walked to the library to return my book after I had something to eat at Starbucks. I had to walk around the square as certain areas were clear and others not so much. I stayed at the library to catch my breath before leaving. I finished my drink, which didn’t taste like it should but it was still yummy. I think it was because I had so many espresso shots in it. I walked to the bus stop and waited. I was out of breath going the two and half blocks. The cold was not good for my lungs. I had to stop at the pharmacy and just made it before their lunch break.

I came home and changed. I was still short of breath and coughing. Sometimes I would wheeze. It took a few hours for it to settle down. I tried taking a nap but my phone kept going off. I should have put the do not disturb on. I realized while I was at the library I needed to go for bloodwork. I didn’t feel like going into town. I will go on Thursday as I will be getting my “real” ID. I got the next Finlay Donovan book as the library had it.

My birthday dinner was good. My nephew showed up late but he came and I was grateful. I miss him. I scored on Starbucks cards. My cousin gave me some of her chocolate chip cookies that I love. My sister gave me some chocolate that I don’t like but it’s ok. I will give it to someone else, hehehe.

I got some of my grades back today and it has me very upset. I didn’t do too well on my paper. My average dropped to a C level. I sent an email to my professor to ask why I did so terrible on the paper. I had done all she asked and put more into it. I don’t know. I am still waiting for the group and exam grades. It sucks I worked so hard in this class and to have a C is just killing me.

Last night I finally took a shower after dinner. My sister was getting so heated about why I wasn’t showering. She doesn’t understand how hard it is for me. I get out of breath while washing up and drying off. I need to sit a few times if my back cramps up. The whole experience just leaves me exhausted. Yeah I feel better but I need to rest for like an hour afterwards and drink a lot of water because I get so thirsty. And I am usually done in like 10 mins. Ten minutes for me to become exhausted just from washing and drying myself. I have to psych myself up to take one. I almost forgot to do my meds because I took a nap and that threw everything off. My sisters don’t understand how painful it is for me to shower. It takes a lot of effort and I try to be better at it but it just doesn’t work out.

I am tired. I woke up a few times during the night with strange dreams. I kept on waking up with a headache. I keep having dreams where I am in the psych hospital. I just wander around. It’s so weird because in real life you can’t leave the ward. I don’t know. I hate the dreams. I wish I could have a good night of sleeping without dreams.