Hotter weather is already driving me crazy
It’s only been like two days but the weather is warmer and I hate it. I am sweating and I can’t get comfortable in bed. I woke up at 2 to pee and was up the rest of the night. I ended up reading my book for a bit. I read like two chapters. Then I slept most of the day. I didn’t want to get out of bed. There was nothing really for me to do anyway aside from reading my book.
I have been in a mood the last few hours. Psychache is up. I just feel so depressed. I can’t even put my thoughts to words anymore. I am so tired all the time.
I have therapy tomorrow. I am going to try and send her an email saying that I am actively suicidal but I don’t know if I will or not. I don’t see what the point of it will be.
I had ice cream for dinner. I didn’t want anything else. It is all I have eaten today. I just had one cup of coffee. But I drank powerade throughout the night. I just have an opposite schedule.
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