Sleepy Friday 16052025
I had wanted to get up early and get my blood work done before therapy but I never got up. I slept pretty good, only waking up once to pee and then I went back to sleep. I got up around 1130 or so. I had a cup of coffee and play time with the puppy, who shit in the kitchen and guess who stepped in it?? Yup, me. Potty training is tough.
I only got about a half hour with my therapist today. There doesn’t seem to be consistency in our time. One day can be 40 mins others can be a half hour. We didn’t talk about anything but school. She is going to try and get me into an IOP after the one my psychiatrist recommended didn’t take my insurance. I think I am headed toward the hospital or an overdose. I am getting so fed up with my care. I am feeling really hopeless. My DMH worker called so that was good. I have a meeting with her on Monday. She wanted to check in with me before the weekend.
I managed to shower because I stunk. I was sweating as it is humid today. I hate it. I was in my kitchen having supper and I was sweating with my shirt off. I like being shirtless around the house. I tried working on my paper in the kitchen in the afternoon and all I got done was a paragraph. All the ideas I had for the paper seemed to blank out of my head. I fucking hate that. I had a cup of coffee with supper. I had salad for supper but for some reason, the lettuce froze in my fridge and it was gross. I threw half of it away. It was like eating ice.
I have been playing my game most of the day. Just a distraction. I was resting when my DMH worker called. I might have napped if she didn’t. My allergies are so bad today. I used Flonase and my allegra. I just took a second dose. I can feel the shit dripping down my throat. I hate it. Sox are playing with their new jerseys. They are green Monster green and I am conflicted about liking them. They look like A’s uniforms, though the color is Monster green. I don’t know. Maybe I will grow to like them. Right now they are losing. They haven’t had a good season.
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