Nor’easter heading this way
We are having a late Nor’easter coming tomorrow that is supposed to give us a ton of rain. It has been cold today. My room is freezing. I just put on a long sleeve shirt. I’ve had a headache all day so a storm is coming. I don’t know how bad it will be.
I went to my therapist office today. I went a different way and it took nearly an hour as opposed to a half hour the other way. I think it was because of the bus. Anyway, I will try another station next week. We didn’t talk much about anything. I felt like I overshared. I didn’t tell her I was close to overdosing last night. I can’t get it out of my head now. I feel like I just confuse her.
I came home and I was wicked exhausted but starving. All I had to eat today was a protein bar and one cup of coffee. I made some pasta with cheddar. It was good. I can’t wait to get my grocery order placed. I want pancakes. Maybe I will make them tomorrow. I have nothing to do. I forgot to get my library book. Maybe I will get it Friday before my therapy appt. I am not going anywhere tomorrow in the rain.
I was doing some research last night. I found that there was a paper about impulsive suicide attempts. It was a good paper. I also sent my therapist a paper on ASAD and SCS. They are similar and then I read a paper on the three step theory of suicide which sound more like the Interpersonal theory of suicide. I still haven’t told my therapist I am a suicidologist. I don’t know why I am keeping this from her.
I got a bill from my therapist office with my deadname and I was billed with another provider. How fucked up is this?? I am going to yell at them tomorrow. For fucks sake. It has been like more than 5 months I have been seeing her. I am so pissed. I don’t know what the hell their deal is. I won’t pay it until it is in my name, my LEGAL name.
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