Allergies bad today
Since waking up this morning, I have been sneezing my head off. Not only in my room but in the kitchen as well. It is cool out today and the pollen is low but it is grass which I am allergic to. I feel ok otherwise, maybe a little tired. I tried doing the laundry today. The comforter my niece has needed two dry cycles. I am waiting for the second to stop so I can put the towels in to dry.
I was feeling pretty depressed this morning. I have to clear my bed off but I have no energy to do it. It was a challenge today just to brush my teeth. I can’t blame the puppy because she isn’t here. I had my last salad kit for lunch. I had two cups of coffee. It should just really be one big cup but the Keurig doesn’t make it big enough and I don’t have a big sized cup so two it is.
I made a PB&J for supper. I drank one of Starbucks energy drinks with it. I didn’t like it and I have another one in the fridge. It was a lot of seltzer and now I have gas pains. I don’t know. I have been fighting sleep most of the day. But no matter what room I enter, I start sneezing. It is cold in my room because I had the AC on. I shut it off but it hasn’t warmed up. My feet are cold.
All I’ve been thinking of counting out some pills or dying. My sister set off my PTSD when she came home and I just had enough. I don’t feel safe at home anymore. My nerves are shattered. I feel like I am constantly walking on eggshells. I hate it. I wish there was a way out or a place I could go to. I don’t need this stress.
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