Still haven’t done anything
I forced myself out of bed around noon time. I didn’t want to get up. I have been feeling low the past few days, some with suicidal thoughts. I got up and checked on the puppy and then had my coffee with some pancakes. I needed to shave my head. After I had two cups of coffee and played with my phone for a bit, I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. I felt like shit and didn’t want to shave but if I didn’t I would have wait another month for my hair to grow out and I didn’t want to. I started to shave and without meaning to, I shaved my beard. I guess I am growing a goatee now.
I thought about taking a nap. I haven’t done anything to my room. I need to take the recycling out as tomorrow is trash day. My allergies are berserk right now. I keep sneezing and I am all stuffy.
I took the recycling out. I had to make two trips down and up the stairs. The puppy saw it as an opportunity to pee and shit in the kitchen. I feel bad. I would have taken her for a walk but she didn’t have her collar on and every time I try to put it on, she runs away from me. Bitch sister came home around this time and we had an argument. I feel like dogshit that was on the floor. She said I can’t take care of the dog because I can’t walk her. I feel so upset. I am thinking about counting pills out. I want to cry. I got a huge headache. I hate this stress she puts me in.
My side is hurting me again. I think I inflamed my gallbladder with the leftover Chinese food I ate. Every day I have some kind of pain. I hate it.
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