Trying to get into a groove
I was up half the night with stomach and foot issues. I finally took something for my stomach at 6am as I couldn’t take the burning anymore. I wanted to work on psych but the new assignments weren’t going to come in till 9. I tried to go back to sleep but really couldn’t. I wanted a coffee but wasn’t sure how my stomach would react. A couple of hours later, my stomach settled and it stayed settled. I had some lunch. It was too late by the time I got up for me to think about going out. I just wasn’t feeling like it.
After I had my coffee and something to eat, I went upstairs to check the psych stuff. There are 10 things this week I need to do and a quiz and a test in Econ. I listened to lectures today. My psych prof has a soothing voice. I got another lecture to listen to but tomorrow is Econ day. I am trying to alternate days with stuff. I haven’t started a notebook for either class yet. I don’t know if I will. I like referring to the book for stuff.
I made some attempts at looking for a new therapist. My DMH worker is trying to get me to call the other place I was at to see if I can see someone where she works. Out of the offhand, I finally bit the bullet and try the local place I’ve been avoiding. It’s only because the turnover rate for therapists is high and I don’t want to run into seeing someone for a year and have to change therapists again and again. I know you need the “right fit” for therapy but I think I am not going to find someone. I thought this new therapist would work out but she pissed me off when she started doing a cheer to get me out of my depressed state. WTF is that! I hope I can see someone soon as my depression is bad at the moment.
Tomorrow I need to do some grocery shopping. Just a small one. I want to get burgers or a steak and some salad. They also have an open buffet of food so I think I am going to get some chicken wings for lunch. I am tired from doing nothing today. It’s pathetic. But then I have been up since 6am and it’s after 830pm now so. Sox game is still playing so I want to stay up till it ends. Damn relief pitcher gave up two runs so they are down a run. I am not happy right now.
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