Feeling down and out
I had a good sleep but I didn’t want to get up. I had a hard time getting out of bed. Not even coffee could lure me out. I just didn’t care. I thought about just reading and not getting up for coffee or eating. I wanted pancakes though. It was almost 1pm and I took my meds. I used the bathroom and played with the puppy afterward. I went into the kitchen and there were huge piles of poop. I was not happy. I cleaned it up and then washed/scrubbed my hands before making my coffee. Again I just had one cup. I thought about making another but I knew my stomach wouldn’t be able to take it. I was tired and just wanted to go back to bed.
I went upstairs and just played my game. I had some messages to respond to so I did that. I still had to pick up my meds. I will tomorrow. It was raining today and I didn’t feel like going out. I thought about taking an Uber or a Lyft but it was late and I just didn’t want to go.
I made a salad for dinner and then after I ate, I went and did some school work. I finished the chapter I needed to read. There are some notes I need to read before taking the quiz. This stuff was a little bit more understandable than the other chapters. I just hope I get a good grade on the quiz. I don’t know when the test results will be back. I still have a shit ton of psych to read. I haven’t even looked to see what exactly is due on Mon. There are usually three things due. My group is trying to get a zoom meeting but no one has responded, as usual. I looked up the guy we are to write on. He is on Wikipedia. I hope they have citations in the file. That will be easy to trace for the information that I need for the paper.
My stomach is doing ok. I talked with the nurse at my PCP’s office. I told him I already discussed things with the doc last week and would like to stay on the same dose until my stomach calms down before increasing it. I am still having stomach upset and reflux. My pcp said to take the stomach med on an empty stomach but I always do. Lately I have been taking it and then going back to sleep for a few hours so that it can work before I drink coffee. It seems to help the upset. I haven’t been needing to take an extra pill at night. I asked her if she would check my iron levels and she ordered it. She said she doesn’t need to check my pancreas enzymes so I am glad.
I feel depressed. Things are stressing me out and I have no one to talk to about them. I don’t know how long I will be on the waitlist for a therapist. Hopefully not too long. I have to go through intake. I don’t know if I will have to wait after that for a therapist. I am keeping my DMH worker’s place open in case this place doesn’t work out.
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