always something

Always something

I got into a really rotten mood last night. I was restless and felt like I had to do something. A friend said to write but I didn’t feel like writing. I did what my mind wanted me to. Now I am one step closer to my plan than before.

I had a good sleep and woke up around 8 to take my meds. I stayed in bed for a couple of hours and then got up around noon. I checked to see if my migraine med was ready and it was not so I just made coffee. I didn’t have anything with it and I didn’t feel like cooking. My cold is slowly getting better. I think it is because I am resting so much.

I ordered some gatorades and some chamomile tea. I also got an ice cream because I have been craving it. I shoved everything into my freezer but it wouldn’t close so I had to take the stuff out of the box. Oh well.

My niece came home and told me our outdoor cat that has been living with us for at least 10 years has cancer. I don’t know how much longer she has. I feel bad for my other niece who has been taking care of her all this time.

I had my zoom meeting last night with my group. Someone picked the thing I had wanted so I had to pick something else. I will research it this weekend. I still need to do the thing for the week and the extra credit. It should be easy. I just have to get my ass to read chapter 10. I have been reading in the evening before bed and that has been working out because then it makes me sleepy and I can go right to sleep afterwards (usually).

I weighed myself today. I am 203.4 so lost 3 lbs since last week. I am going to try and eat less this week. I really want to go below 200 within the next few weeks. I will be going on a higher dose of the weight loss drug next week. Other than heartburn, I haven’t had too much stomach trouble. My gallbladder pain has calmed down a lot this week. I hope it stays calmed down.

Last night I was thinking of my mother. She would start baking next week in anticipation of my sister’s birthday, and the coming birthdays. November is birthday month. A lot of people were born more in this month than any other. I hate it because it means seeing family more and then you got Turkey day and that brings it’s own set of troubles. I thought I was going to be able to spend Turkey day with my friend but she won’t be in town. I still don’t know what the plan is for my family. They had talked about going to Maine for the weekend. I don’t want to go that far. I rather stay close to home. Last year we went over my aunt’s. It was nice. We were all missing my mother. I missed her stuffing and chocolate chip cookies. And her biscottis. Those were so good. I would have a few of them for breakfast some times. I should learn how to make it but you have to roll out the dough and I hate that part of recipe.

Another weekend. Monday I think I will return the library books that I borrowed. I got to vote next week, in person, because I didn’t get my mail in ballot. I don’t know why I didn’t get it. But I hear the voting board has been messed up this year. A lot of people didn’t get their ballots.