I just want you

I just want you

Last night it was really hot in my room so I went downstairs and was snoozing on my niece’s bed as she wasn’t home yet. I ended up falling asleep and cuddling with the puppy. My niece never came home. I have no idea where she is. She hasn’t been responding to my messages. I hope she is ok. I kind of woke up this morning because bitch was loud and the puppy went to the bathroom in the kitchen. I went back to sleep until my med alarm went off. I honestly had no idea what the noise was. I had set an alarm for 830 but stayed in bed. I haven’t heard my med alarm in a long time because I usually take my meds before it went off and earlier than the time I have set.

I had a cup of coffee after I took my meds and got my glasses. I had my phone but I didn’t have my glasses which is kind of stupid as I can’t read my phone without them. After I had my coffee, I went in my room and it was like the tropics. It was so damn hot. It was 81 degrees. 19 outside. I had the ceiling fan on but it wasn’t doing much. I had my session. I told her how worthless and guilty I felt over things and the depression being bad. She asked if I wanted support like a partial hospital and I said no. I don’t find them helpful. I actually find inpatient group much better than outpatient.

I texted my cousin to see if he was still going to take me to the grocery store tomorrow and he told me he could take me today. I waited till he was ready and then I went. I got a few things. They didn’t have the yogurt I wanted so I got something similar. I hope I like it. I also got corn muffins for breakfast. I finally got some roast beef. I didn’t get cheese because that flares up my gallbladder. I am so sad I can’t have cheese anymore.

I had a turkey sandwich and clam chowder for lunch. My stomach was quick to become upset. My side pain hasn’t flared up so that is good. I am listening to Taylor. I made a 1989 and Show girl playlist. I think I am going to have an Ensure with my night meds again. I don’t want my stomach to hurt me all night so I am not going to eat anything. I will make sure that I drink water or Powerade so I stay hydrated. I am going to have to make sure I drink because it is so damn hot in my room and I am not sure when the temps will go down. Heat isn’t above 70 so I don’t understand why it is so hot. We are supposed to get bad weather this weekend. I hope the first day of school isn’t canceled. That would suck.