all too well 10 min version

All too well (ten min version)

I didn’t know what to choose for a title today so I picked a Taylor song that I love. I started listening to it on the way home last night and had to stop it when I walked in the door. I love listening to Red TV. It is so good. There is going to be a Taylor cover concert in my town but I don’t know when it will be. I didn’t see the date. I want to go.

I had planned on reading my textbook today but I have done nothing this afternoon since I woke up. I had two cups of coffee, one of them was after 530 so I will stay up. I need to read. And it is a long chapter. I have homework to do tomorrow. I want to get the reading done so I can do it.

I have been feeling really tired most of the day. I got another migraine. That makes 5 in a week. My neuro hasn’t got back to me on what she wants to do. I was hoping to hear from her today. Maybe tomorrow. I am supposed to see my DMH worker tomorrow afternoon. Weather is supposed to be decent. I might walk to the station. Depends on my mood. I have taken Tylenol nearly every day this week for one pain or another. My headache is getting worse. I haven’t taken anything for it, yet. I get sick of taking pills all the time.

I feel really depressed. Last night I had such a difficult time trying to sleep. I don’t think I fell asleep till after 2am or so. I read my book but it didn’t matter. I was just wired. I hate when I come home late but there is nothing I can do about it. I slept late so that was good. I was having a good dream before some noise outside woke me up. I had taken my morning pills around 730 when I went pee. I was reading an article that just came out about sleep and suicidal ideation. It was an interesting study. I hope I don’t have a hard time falling asleep tonight because I need to leave the house by 2 tomorrow.

The puppy has been with her daddy the last few days. I hope she comes home tonight. I miss her so much. Today my phone created a collage of pics of her. She was so small. It has been amazing watching her grow up.