Author: Midnight Demon

First day of semester

Class was not in the room that I thought it was in. It was in the auditorium and I was nervous. It lt was an almost full room. I had flashbacks of when I first tried taking this class and there was so much commotion while the professor was talking it was difficult to concentrate. But the instructor I have now is different. It got quiet when she started lecturing. She went over the syllabus and then moved on to the lecture. I am in over my head. I have to read chap 1 and 2 by Mon. My clicker works so I am happy about that.

I picked up my meds before I went to campus. I am glad I took a lyft because I missed the bus and the street I would need to go down was covered in snow. There was a lot of traffic getting the Square. They were clearing snow so it just caused traffic. I bought a bottle of water. I wanted to get the rice dish I usually get but it would have thawed out by the time I got home.

There was a couple of days I went without my meds because I ran out. I haven’t taken one of my blood pressure meds all week. And I ran out of my heart med today. I got them now and put them in my box. I ate a big meal before leaving the house so I took my Latuda. I finally have my migraine med and will take it tonight. I just need to wait for it to warm up a bit.

I forgot my password for my UMB account. It isn’t what I have in my password app. And I don’t know how to change it. I can’t log in to an email app without the password and a 2FA app. The app doesn’t recognize my email so I don’t know what they are using now. I need to find out. I got to ship my laptop soon so I am using the old one and it’s slow as shit. But it works.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with my pcp. Lots to talk about. I just hope she doesn’t ask if I am suicidal. I hate when providers do that. It catches me off guard. I know she is going to read my psychiatrist’s note anyways. I am depressed but not in a depressive episode. Yay.

I’m hungry. I had to order food because I don’t want to make anything. There’s a truck blocking our driveway. I have no idea who owns it. He is an asshole as he usually ends up taking up two parking spaces with it. a

No classes and lab

Due to the terrible snow storm, class and lab have been canceled. I hope we can start on Wed but there is still a deep freeze going on. Things might be icy. I need to go out tomorrow and get my meds. I might take a Lyft there and then take the T home, if service is running properly. Today it was running on a modified schedule.

I ordered a smoothie and a quesadilla from a smoothie place. It was the first thing I had in the past two days. I have been drinking Ensure for two days. Yesterday I wasn’t hungry at all and just had the 350 calories from the Ensure and whatever my coffee gives me. I didn’t eat anything as I had no appetite at all. I have been making sure I am drinking fluids though. I will need to refill my water bottle soon. I haven’t been drinking that much Powerade.

I woke up early today and then didn’t get back to sleep till around 6. I then woke up around 730. I paid some bills and then had coffee. I was contemplating having yogurt but I didn’t want something cold. My room is still freezing from the wind and cold temperatures. It’s still snowing out. I had to put on an extra blanket. I had planned on having therapy in the kitchen where it is warmer but everyone was home from work. Half way through my therapy session my bitch sister knocks on the door because the puppy wanted me. Ugh. She came in my room to get the treats. I don’t believe her. Pissed me off.

Therapy went ok. We talked about the body dysmorphia. I told her I really want to be below 200 pounds but it is really hard when I keep gaining and losing the same weight each week. I will have my weight done at my pcp’s office Thurs. I just got to wear sweatpants. We also talked about peer to peer support. Even though there is one next to my city, I rather go in Boston where I know my way around. I am not familiar with the location of the support center. I think I do but it might not be the one I am thinking of. I know it is near the hospital somewhere close to Inman Square. It is just a pain to get there because of the busses I need to take to get there.

I played with the puppy after my session. It was fun. I got her running all over the house. She is too funny. She loves the bone I got her. That is what we play with as sort of a tug of war. The bone is kind of too small to play with but we make it work once she has a good grip. She is so gentle and doesn’t growl. I love her.

My sister has gotten in the habit of shutting the bathroom door. Problem is there is no heat there so it gets wicked cold. I want to shower but I don’t want to freeze my ass off. I also need to shave my head but I don’t want to be shirtless in the cold. The stupid heat vent is broken. It is on for like five minutes before it shuts off automatically and stays off. I don’t know why it does this. We need an electrician to do something about it.

I just checked the status of my repair for my laptop and it is “completed”. WTF they didn’t do anything!!! So I started another ticket where I will be mailing my laptop to them. I will be without my baby for a few days. Looks like my old laptop will be in use, if I can get it started again. Not a huge deal as I mostly just check my junk mail and write my blog on my laptop. I can do that from my phone if I can’t get the laptop to work.