Author: Midnight Demon

Tired

I went to get my bloodwork done today. I left the house without my wallet so I had to come back to the house. I really just wanted to stay in the house. But I needed to get this stuff done. I had two cups of coffee. I didn’t go to Starbucks as I wasn’t in the mood. There wasn’t a long wait at the lab. My doc ordered more stuff than I thought. I thought it was just a T level but she also ordered a urine and some other blood work.

I came home and heated up a frozen pizza. I hadn’t eaten anything. I had two pieces and saved the rest for tomorrow. Someone ate one of my ice creams and I am not happy about this. I just want to lie down. I need to go over chapter one again. I am running out of spoons. I don’t think there is anything due this week. I just updated the app with the course. I had to log out and log back in which meant resetting my password again. Ugh. Every time I have to put in my password, I have to reset it.

I shaved and brushed my teeth today. I got a goatee going for now. I picked up a book from the library. I have no idea when I am going to read it. Maybe this weekend. I am still reading Moby Dick. I am almost done with it. It is my midnight readings. I need my head to clear. I haven’t had a clear head all day. It has been cloudy for most of the day. I have been so tired. I haven’t napped. I woke up around 10 I think. I took my meds around 7 as I woke up to pee. I had a weird dream but I don’t remember what it was about. I didn’t get a headache thank god.

Not sure if I am going to listen to the game tonight. They lost last night. They haven’t had an offensive tear in a long while. It’s sad. I feel like they are just out of gas. It’s the last month of the season. I am depressed. My brother in law is having a huge thing for the beginning of football season Sunday. He is having some of his friends over. College football season has started but I think OSU has a bye week this week, which is kind of odd as the season just started last week. They won.

First day of fall classes 2024

I had my class today. It was a little overwhelming as the professor has a lot of work set out for us and a group presentation that we need to keep in mind for middle school age kids. This is going to be a lot. There is a weekly discussion forum that we need to participate in and can only miss two out of the semester. I am not quite sure what the final is about but I think that will be clearer as time goes on. I think it is a research paper. My head is spinning with everything. I am so glad this is my only class this semester to focus on.

I had a few times where I was short of breath while walking. I think it was my normal. I am very tired. I snoozed on the train ride home. There was some traffic with the bus but it didn’t take me two hours to get home like it did last semester. I was thankful for that.

Tomorrow I got to get bloodwork done before I can give myself the T shot. I’ll probably go before noon. I would have went today but I didn’t want to be late for class. I plan on going over the chapter I need to study in the afternoon. My psychiatrist canceled on me for this week. I see him in two weeks.

I don’t know what I am going to do for dinner. I was thinking about having ice cream. I don’t feel like making anything. I just don’t know what kind of ice cream I am going to have. And I hope my family member hasn’t eaten any of it because I will be pissed.

I’m home

I had an exciting morning. Breakfast was served and I sat up to eat. My heart rate went berserk. Three nurses and the NP went charging into my room. My heartrate was in the 140s. I felt fine. But I felt anxious afterwards. I hadn’t been taking my beta blocker so they corrected that. My heartrate has been in the 80s and 90s all weekend. I had a feeling it was going to go berserk on me for whatever reason. It didn’t upheld my discharge or cause my headaches to come back. I have been free for almost 24 hours. The second dose of IV Depakote really worked. I went to pick up my meds after being discharged. They have me on steroids for a few days.

I came home and did my meds. I am contemplating shaving my head and showering. I definitely need to brush my teeth as I haven’t all weekend. I got a Starbucks coffee as a treat. I was kind of out of breath walking around the square. I just walked slow. I had lunch before leaving the hospital. I am feeling pretty full. I will probably have something in a few hours. I still have some roast beef. I got a small container of half and half because I totally forgot to order it on my grocery order. I have no idea how I forgot as that is usually the first thing on my list. Now I have to get it at the store either Tues or Wed. I have to get my blood work done Wed so maybe will go then.

I am tired. I was woken up a few times during the night for vitals. The night nurse was so nice. He gave me some Gatorade. I hate some chest discomfort last night with the stupid chest wall pain. They did an EKG to rule out cardiac stuff. I knew it wasn’t because it was the same pain I have been having for over a year. I had stickers on my chest otherwise I would have asked for diclofenac gel to slather on it. I tried napping but I am a difficult napper unless I am dead tired. I can rest but I won’t be able to sleep or doze.

Sox game played already. They lost. I don’t think they are going to make it to the wild card game. I have the evening free so I might read Moby Dick for a few chapters. I wish I brought it with me. I was bored in the hospital but trying to read social media on my phone made my head hurt more so I couldn’t do it. I ended up just laying on the bed. It was hard to even think at times. My brain just felt it was being crushed the whole time I was there. CT was negative. I wish they did an MRI. I would have felt more reassured. I plan on following up with my neuro. Everyone had high praise for my neurologist. She is a good one. I do like her.