Author: Midnight Demon

I am in the hospital. I got admitted last night. The headaches have been brutal. I’m finally getting some relief. I probably will go home tomorrow. I’m glad I got one of my migraine meds before I came in. I took it and now I just feel tired. I have been napping on and off most of the afternoon. I didn’t sleep good last night because they were running meds.

Oh I wish these headaches would fuck off

I slept semi ok through the night. I had some weird work dreams. One of them caused a migraine. I didn’t take anything for it, I just went back to sleep. I didn’t want to get up today. I had a headache that turned into a migraine so I canceled my appointment with my DMH worker. I felt bad doing it but I needed a shower and it was going to take a lot of spoons to take one. I also had to shave my head and trim my beard. I eventually got up at noon. I had the quesadilla that I ordered yesterday and two cups of coffee.

I am so damn tired. I wanted to clear my bed but I just got the recycled off. I haven’t had the energy to do anything else. I tried napping but wasn’t successful. I had ice cream for dinner. I didn’t want anything else. I had to take a gabapentin because I keep getting neuropathy pains in my head every time the cool breeze touches my head. Last night I fell asleep before 7pm and woke up around midnight. I took a trazodone and I think I ended up journaling for bit or read. I don’t really remember. I kept thinking about things to dream about so I wouldn’t be “caught off guard” with emotional stuff.

I bought the new Sugarland album. It’s only four songs. I love Georgia is Yours. I cannot wait to see them Halloween night. I hope these headaches and migraines are gone by then. I just took a triptan as the newer migraine med hasn’t helped. It is going to take a while for the Topamax to build up. It will be at least two weeks before I am at the 100 mg dose daily. I am only on 25mg right now. I go up next week. I hope it doesn’t make me dopey. Classes start Tues. I am wicked nervous the headaches are going to interfere with my concentration. I am trying to muddle through with them but it is so hard when all I want to do is rest my head on my pillow. I am trying to stay up late (by late I mean at least 9pm) but it is hard when your head hurts so much. I am thinking about going to the ED if this cycle of headaches don’t improve.

Consult

I met with the dream consult today and it was a good meeting. She is wondering if the dreams are kind of a prodrome to the migraines or if the dream itself causes me to go into a “shock” of trauma. I ended up getting a migraine during the meeting. I have been fight it off but it hasn’t settled down. We decided to do some work before I go to sleep to put me into a safe space where only certain things are allowed in. I will see her probably next month to report back to her. I sent a message to my pcp to ask if there is a chance this could be menopausal as I haven’t had an estrogen test in a long time.

I had woken up with a migraine this morning. I had to go pee and man did my head hurt. I went back to sleep. I didn’t take any meds. I woke up a few hours later to pee again. I took my meds and slept. I didn’t want to get up but I had to for my appointment. I started the Topamax last night. I haven’t had much of an appetite today but I had to eat something. I ordered taco bell when I woke up from my nap. I still got a headache. I am hoping having some food will make the headache go away. I only had one cup of coffee today. I could be dehydrated as I have been sweating most of the day. It’s hot today.

I wanted to take a shower today but still haven’t found the energy to do it. I sweated a lot at the game last night. It was so hot and walking around in the heat made me so fricken tired. Sox won. I am so glad. We had good seats, right in center field. I got to take a pic of my favorite catcher. I love being at the park, even if I was tired. It was so fun. I made sure to use the bathroom before leaving, this time. My sister was shocked that I used the men’s room. I don’t know why. I couldn’t use the women’s room with a full beard on my face. Like seriously??

I don’t know if I am going to listen to the game tonight. I am pretty beat with this migraine. I did a lot of walking last night. My legs are still hurting me. I am glad I didn’t have to go out today. Tomorrow I meet with my DMH worker. I might meet up with my sister after the appointment to go home. Maybe I will pick up some hotdogs at the grocery store.