Author: Midnight Demon

Review and not feeling well

Here is a review for my book  https://bradmckenna.wordpress.com/2024/08/15/book-review-dont-call-me-daughter/

All week I have been dealing with toothaches. It started with one tooth now several are involved. I called a dentist and will be seen tomorrow. I need to leave early so I can go to my other dentist and get a copy of my xrays sent to the new place. I am in so much pain. I can’t even drink my coffee. I don’t know what set it off. I don’t know if the broken teeth have gotten worse or if it is the upper teeth. Ugh. I don’t have money to get this fixed. I am so screwed.

I didn’t sleep well last night. It was hard to be comfortable when in pain. I need to take a shower today. I stink again. I have been moving slow today. I got my appointment with the social worker mixed up. I thought the time was at 3 and it was at 2. Dammit. I hate when I screw up.

I got to plan on a day to go to the social security office next week to change my gender. I think I will go either Mon or Tues, if I can get out of bed at a decent time. I have had such difficulty getting out of bed the last few days. My alarm goes off at 8 and I just shut it off and go back to sleep, only to wake up after 12. I hope once this tooth doesn’t hurt anymore I will have a normal sleep/wake cycle again. I need to brush my teeth. Yesterday while rinsing my mouth, the water hurt my tooth so bad. I am fearful about brushing them again but it needs to be done.

It’s thundering and raining right now. I hope it doesn’t trigger a migraine. Since I changed my magnesium formula, I haven’t had a headache or migraine all week. I am wicked tired and just want to fucking sleep. Maybe I will get some burgers tomorrow after the dentist appointment. I don’t think I will eat today unless it is a PB&J sandwich. I had one last night for supper. It was so good. I loaded both sides of the bread with peanut butter.

Woke up late

Without meaning to, I woke up around 1pm. I slept through the night ok. I don’t know why I slept so late. I just couldn’t get up. I have a bad toothache. It has been hurting the past few days but today it is really bad. I took some ibuprofen but it hasn’t done anything so I took some pain meds. I am waiting for it to work.

I wanted to go out to get some burgers but had no energy. I made some hot dogs. The first bite I took set off some wicked pain in my tooth. I also made some baked beans. It kind of exploded in the microwave and I had a mess to clean up. I don’t think I will be eating anything more today. It is just too painful.

Yesterday I called SSA to see if they could update my record to male and was told I had to go in the office with the necessary documents. Fucking A. Walking to the office is a bitch. It’s like half a mile from the station. But there is now a Starbucks there so I can get some decent java on the way there. I wanted to call the therapy place but never did. I didn’t call today either. Maybe I will tomorrow.

Pain meds finally kicked in and I am having minimal pain. I know it probably will come back when the meds wear off. What sucks is that it is on my right side of my face and I sleep on my right side. My face is slightly swollen. I need to find a dentist that will do some work without charging me a lot of money for it. I really should look into a dental school for care. I need to call them and I hate making phone calls.

I have nothing to do this week. I see the social worker at my PCP’s office Thurs. It’s just a check in. I should read my textbook. I have been feeling off the past few days where I don’t feel like do anything. I just want to lay down. It is so hard for me to do things. Last night after the game, I had a hard time going to sleep so I read Moby Dick. I took a trazodone and it worked quicker than expected. I wanted to read to chapter 100 but after chapter 98, I had to go to sleep. I probably will be done with the book by the end of the month. I have 36 chapters left.