Author: Midnight Demon

I’m home

I had an exciting morning. Breakfast was served and I sat up to eat. My heart rate went berserk. Three nurses and the NP went charging into my room. My heartrate was in the 140s. I felt fine. But I felt anxious afterwards. I hadn’t been taking my beta blocker so they corrected that. My heartrate has been in the 80s and 90s all weekend. I had a feeling it was going to go berserk on me for whatever reason. It didn’t upheld my discharge or cause my headaches to come back. I have been free for almost 24 hours. The second dose of IV Depakote really worked. I went to pick up my meds after being discharged. They have me on steroids for a few days.

I came home and did my meds. I am contemplating shaving my head and showering. I definitely need to brush my teeth as I haven’t all weekend. I got a Starbucks coffee as a treat. I was kind of out of breath walking around the square. I just walked slow. I had lunch before leaving the hospital. I am feeling pretty full. I will probably have something in a few hours. I still have some roast beef. I got a small container of half and half because I totally forgot to order it on my grocery order. I have no idea how I forgot as that is usually the first thing on my list. Now I have to get it at the store either Tues or Wed. I have to get my blood work done Wed so maybe will go then.

I am tired. I was woken up a few times during the night for vitals. The night nurse was so nice. He gave me some Gatorade. I hate some chest discomfort last night with the stupid chest wall pain. They did an EKG to rule out cardiac stuff. I knew it wasn’t because it was the same pain I have been having for over a year. I had stickers on my chest otherwise I would have asked for diclofenac gel to slather on it. I tried napping but I am a difficult napper unless I am dead tired. I can rest but I won’t be able to sleep or doze.

Sox game played already. They lost. I don’t think they are going to make it to the wild card game. I have the evening free so I might read Moby Dick for a few chapters. I wish I brought it with me. I was bored in the hospital but trying to read social media on my phone made my head hurt more so I couldn’t do it. I ended up just laying on the bed. It was hard to even think at times. My brain just felt it was being crushed the whole time I was there. CT was negative. I wish they did an MRI. I would have felt more reassured. I plan on following up with my neuro. Everyone had high praise for my neurologist. She is a good one. I do like her.

I am in the hospital. I got admitted last night. The headaches have been brutal. I’m finally getting some relief. I probably will go home tomorrow. I’m glad I got one of my migraine meds before I came in. I took it and now I just feel tired. I have been napping on and off most of the afternoon. I didn’t sleep good last night because they were running meds.

Oh I wish these headaches would fuck off

I slept semi ok through the night. I had some weird work dreams. One of them caused a migraine. I didn’t take anything for it, I just went back to sleep. I didn’t want to get up today. I had a headache that turned into a migraine so I canceled my appointment with my DMH worker. I felt bad doing it but I needed a shower and it was going to take a lot of spoons to take one. I also had to shave my head and trim my beard. I eventually got up at noon. I had the quesadilla that I ordered yesterday and two cups of coffee.

I am so damn tired. I wanted to clear my bed but I just got the recycled off. I haven’t had the energy to do anything else. I tried napping but wasn’t successful. I had ice cream for dinner. I didn’t want anything else. I had to take a gabapentin because I keep getting neuropathy pains in my head every time the cool breeze touches my head. Last night I fell asleep before 7pm and woke up around midnight. I took a trazodone and I think I ended up journaling for bit or read. I don’t really remember. I kept thinking about things to dream about so I wouldn’t be “caught off guard” with emotional stuff.

I bought the new Sugarland album. It’s only four songs. I love Georgia is Yours. I cannot wait to see them Halloween night. I hope these headaches and migraines are gone by then. I just took a triptan as the newer migraine med hasn’t helped. It is going to take a while for the Topamax to build up. It will be at least two weeks before I am at the 100 mg dose daily. I am only on 25mg right now. I go up next week. I hope it doesn’t make me dopey. Classes start Tues. I am wicked nervous the headaches are going to interfere with my concentration. I am trying to muddle through with them but it is so hard when all I want to do is rest my head on my pillow. I am trying to stay up late (by late I mean at least 9pm) but it is hard when your head hurts so much. I am thinking about going to the ED if this cycle of headaches don’t improve.