Author: Midnight Demon

Saturday Blog 09032024

I spent the entire afternoon reading 24 pages of this Anthro article that said salmon was a cult in some Indian culture that I forgot the name of. It was about the giving and receiving of gifts and my god are some cultures weird. The next couple of readings (each at least 20 pages long) all deal with gifts of some sort. Then one of the readings deals with racism. I am not looking forward to that reading.

My right calf has been bothering me all day. It feel tight but every time I try and stretch it, it hurts. I just took a muscle relaxer. I have been taking it nearly around the clock the past few days. Thurs I had some of the awful chest cramps before class and still feel tight.

Quiz 2 in psych is still not up for grades. And chapt 3 isn’t either. Weird that 4 and 5 have been graded but not 3. I did poorly on 4 and 5. I don’t remember what chapter 3 was about. I am not going to read psych until the end of next week. I have to get through the Anthro readings because I am behind. I also need to do the observe assignment. I wish I could take my laptop to Starbucks so I can read these articles than stay in my room. I need to get a new battery so I can travel with it. Even though I should probably replace this as it takes forever to login.

I finally have the game on the Audacy app. Listening to the game today. They are playing in the Dominican Republic. It has been a mix of wins and losses so far but I am not worried as the games don’t really count as it is spring training.

I slept pretty good. I took a trazodone around midnight because my anxiety was high and I wasn’t sure I would get to sleep. I ate a lot today. I am planning on making an egg burrito. I am hoping there is hot sauce in the cabinet. The Frank’s Red Hot stuff I bought was more like a sweet sauce than a hot sauce. I was disappointed but it went good with the chicken nuggets I bought. I might get some more on Monday when my SNAP check comes in. I am going to try and read one more article before bed and listen to the lectures.

Baby kiss it better…Book Announcement II

My book is live for pre-orders!! https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CWYKQ435?ref_=pe_93986420_775043100

It’s only available as an e-book for right now. It will be available in paperback when I finish editing it. Release date is June 14. I wanted to give myself some time after the semester ended to work on my edits. I am so excited.

I had a difficult time getting up today and didn’t make it to my blood donation appointment. I just wanted to sleep in. I wanted to work on my Anthro today but I just need a break right now. I will work on it tomorrow. I might go to Starbucks and sit for a while to observe people. I have no idea what I am doing. I started writing a word doc and stopped after a few sentences. I thought about it some more last night but I wasn’t getting anywhere. My anxiety has been through the roof the past couple of days. I haven’t been able to relax.

I took a shower today and shaved off my beard. I wanted to groom but couldn’t do it. Some other day. It’s cool in my room. I was so fricken stinky. I sweat again last night which made it worse. I think it might be hormones that is causing me to sweat so much. I also have been really hungry today. I have been eating small meals. I had ramen noodles for dinner. I might have chimichangas later. I have two left.

My back is hurting me for some reason. I don’t know why. I didn’t do anything to annoy it other than showering. My back always hurts after I shower. It will cramp like crazy but this is my lower back and I don’t know why it is bothering me. It’s cold in my room so maybe the muscles are cold. I don’t know.

I texted my therapist the other day and she never responded. I hate when she doesn’t fucking respond to my questions. She can be a real bitch sometimes. I see her Monday. I have an appointment with advising in the morning. I just hope I remember and don’t sleep through it. I should be up for it as it is not too early in the morning. I have two classes picked up for Tues/Thurs. Unfortunately, the time in between classes is like two hours. Nothing I can do about that. I think I have Eng first as I am taking a US distribution class so a lot of reading as it is on six American authors. I hope it is interesting.

My damn foot is frozen again. I slept with a sock on all night. It helped. Luckily, I didn’t get nerve pain like I usually do. Tomorrow I plan on reading Anthro all day. I am a week behind because I spent all my time with psych the past week. Spring break is next week so I won’t be traveling to campus. I just plan on doing Anthro work and reading chapters 5 and 6 in psych.

I have been feeling numb along with feeling anxious the past few days. I don’t know why my anxiety is so fricken high. I am not usually an anxious person. I am glad I have Ativan though. It helps to sort me out and clear my thinking, especially when I am triggered with PTSD. I try not to take it all the time, usually just at night with my night meds so I can sleep without too much trouble. Last night I went to sleep before 8pm and woke up around midnight. I had to pee so I did and then had a hard time getting back to sleep again. I read some of my psych book until I just couldn’t concentrate on it anymore. I still am not done with the chapter. It’s like 30 pages long.