Author: Midnight Demon

Boring Tuesday

It’s 75 degrees in Boston today. I am topless. I plan on showering sometime today. I need to clear my bed off. Ugh. I hate that it takes me days to do and then it takes a few minutes to change the bedding and put on clean sheets.

My therapist ended our therapist. She said that I no longer want to continue with treatment. I do but not with her. She said she was going to let my psychiatrist know this. I don’t fucking care. The guy sees me every two months so what the hell does he know about my life? We talk maybe 15 minutes and he says we go for 30 min. it’s a scam. I am hoping being out of therapy helps somewhat. I don’t know how long I will be out of therapy. My depression isn’t really bad and things are going some what ok right now. I know when the fall starts and school anxiety kicks in it will be a challenge.

I slept late today. It wasn’t intentional. I was hoping to be up around 10 and ended up waking up around 12. Oh well. I made some stuff to eat. I made a pasta salad. It was good. I am still kind of hungry but I don’t know what I want to eat. My cousin will be taking me to the grocery store tomorrow. I need to get a few things.

It’s Monday again

I had therapy today and about an hour or so after we ended session, I sent a message saying I quit. It just isn’t worth it to me anymore. I barely talked. I had no idea what to talk about. I am done with her. If she responds, I am going to ask for another therapist. She just isn’t right for me.

I have been dealing with allergies most of the day. I have a knot of phlegm at the back of my throat that won’t go down and can’t cough up. I keep coughing and my nose is running. No matter how many times I blow my nose, I am still congested. I fucking hate this season and wish it was fall already. (I would love to skip summer all together).

I started clearing my bed off. I started with one side and will do the other side tomorrow. I need to go to the grocery store. I need more half and half and some turkey breast. I’d love a turkey sandwich. I am still feeling low. I have no energy. I made a beef pot pie for lunch. I had chocolate pie for breakfast. It was so yummy. I only had one cup of coffee. I brushed my teeth but I haven’t shaved my head yet. I plan on doing that soon. I might shower, too. I have had back cramps so am waiting for them to calm down before doing what I need to do.

A friend had posted on Facebook a recipe with cabbage and carrots. I am thinking of making it but I need to know if they sell cabbage already shredded. I am not good at shredding stuff, unless I use a food processor. But I did that one time for a chicken recipe and it obliterated the chicken to dust so I don’t want to do that again.

I somehow managed to aggravate a stomach muscle. It cramped in a big way. Fucking hate this. I am going to shave my head before I get too lazy. Until tomorrow folks.