Author: Midnight Demon

New Year’s Day 2026

I somehow got put on a group text with my aunt’s family and my phone has been blowing up since yesterday afternoon with everyone of the 15 people saying the same thing. Then it started again at midnight and I went nuts. I shut my damn phone off. This was my mother’s side of the family. Then today I get my father’s side, which is another group text. But I didn’t mind it because I got to see my new cousin that was born at 1156pm. Just 4 minutes shy of being a New Year’s baby.

I have been tired most of the day. I took a trazodone last night so I slept until 840 I think but couldn’t go back to sleep. I ended up getting up around 11 because I needed coffee. My sister took me grocery shopping so I have food until I get my grocery order delivered on Sat. I am down to my last two bottle of Powerade and I am trying to make them last. I was wicked thirsty when I got up so I drank like half the bottle. I got eggs so I can make breakfast tomorrow. I was going to make an egg today but my sister used them to make cookies. I ended up having pancakes. I got a few cans of my favorite soup. I forgot to see if they had corn chowder so I will be getting it on my grocery order.

I came home a sweaty mess. It was so hot in the grocery store despite it being wicked cold outside. My tshirt was soaked. I need to shower tonight. I snoozed a little with the puppy after my sister had gone downstairs. She likes me better than her as she snuggled with me. She also pooped outside on the porch which I was happy about. There was snow on the porch so I was sure she would even do anything outside other than sniff around. She has a habit of eating her poop so after she went, I brought her inside.

I bought a frozen pizza and that is what I am having for dinner. I also got a chicken pot pie. That will be lunch tomorrow. I forgot to get turkey breast. I wanted to get roast beef but I didn’t have enough money on me. I used my cash last night for dinner so didn’t have extra.

I am so tired. I watched Taylor’s docuseries episode 3. I will watch episode 4 tonight. I still need to hang her calendar up.

3 cups of coffee kind of day

I woke up early.  I have no idea what time because I didn’t dare look at the time. I had to pee. Then my sister did and I was kind of up by then with no hope of falling back to sleep. I got up when everyone left for work. I had my first cup of coffee and then another. I make some boiled eggs. I gave one to the puppy. She loved it.

I then went up to my room and played my game for a bit debating on getting my bloodwork done. It was wicked cold out so I knew I would freeze waiting for the bus. Instead I got out of breath and my back flared up. I need to go out more. I came home by cab because I didn’t feel like taking the T home. I also had to pee and had too many layers to use a public restroom.

I am so tired. I had some pancakes for lunch. My family is going to a new restaurant tonight. Looking at the menu, I already know what I want. I just hope the BLT comes with fries. I didn’t check that. I really would rather be home reading and snoring into the new year. The time between Christmas and New Years day sucks. It’s like a dead end period or something. I am going to take a nap before my sisters get home from work. I still have my jeans on because I am too lazy to change. There is a chance if I change, I might not change again.

I need to go food shopping. I am down to the bare essentials. I got tuna and mac and cheese mix left. I want soup. Also want cookies. I have become a cookie monster again because of all the cookies I have been exposed to. My niece made these awesome protein oatmeal chocolate chip cookies and they were so yummy. I called them healthy because they had protein in them.

Tomorrow I am just going to stay in bed. But I got to go to the grocery store, fuck. That screws up that plan. I am trying not to crash but I think I might. I will check to see if my lab results are back in an hour or so. I wanted to take the puppy for a walk but she hid under the bed when I grabbed the leash. She is so weird.

Fiercely overheated room

I had a difficult time sleeping last night. I didn’t end up falling asleep until 4am. Then I had weird dreams that gave me headaches. I woke up around 9 to pee and then I took my meds. I set my alarm for 1130 so I could make some coffee before my therapy appt. That was the plan at least. I didn’t end up getting out of bed when the alarm went off. I did get up when my phone was blowing up with messages. My sisters were decided what to do for New Year’s Eve. We will be going to some restaurant.

I showered today. Then while I was resting in my underwear, I had a bowel accident. I had to wash myself off and my underwear too. That was fun. Now I got to be careful when I fart.

I haven’t eaten anything today. I had two cups of coffee after therapy. I am not really hungry. I have been drinking a lot of fluid though. I sent off my BP readings to my pcp’s office. It’s been a week since I have been at the 75 mg dose of my blood pressure med. My diastolic is still in the 90s. I go for bloodwork this week.

I am glad my DMH worker texted me today because I forgot I am meeting her tomorrow. If the weather is somewhat warm, I might walk to the station. Otherwise, I will take the bus. My grade is finally in. I got an A- and my GPA is now 2.53. I went over the audit while I was waiting for my therapist and I still have 10 fricken classes to take. I have 3 for my requirements and then almost 7 for electives. This feel like a never ending game or something.

Phone is still blowing up. My nephew can’t eat Asian food so now we are going around the table again. Ugh. Now they are talking about playing games. I don’t want to play no games. I’d rather sit in a bookstore, looking at books. More like drooling over them as I can’t afford them. I am tired today. I want to just read my books until I fall asleep. I am playing my game. I am so addicted to it. It’s fun.